Feeling Worthless

[bumbledbee]

I can't cope. don't want to go to work. I feel worthless. I have no appetite. All I want to do is curl up under a blanket in the dark. Negative thoughts just won't go away.

[Sophie_M]

Hi bumbledbee,

We're so sorry to hear that you're feeling worthless. We understand that these negative thoughts must be overwhelming. Please know that you do not have to do this alone. Many in our community have had similar feelings and understand. Hopefully a few of them will pop by and offer you some words of kindness and advice.

Please know that there is help available to you. The Beyond Blue Support Service on 1300 22 4636 or our friends at Lifeline on 13 11 14 are available to provide support and advice 24/7. Please do feel free to use these services to talk through what's on your mind when it's feeling like too much to cope with. We would also recommend that you pop in to see your GP to try to get some ongoing mental health support if you are not doing this already.
Please also feel free to keep us updated here on your thread with what you are feeling and experiencing whenever you feel up to it.

[bumbledbee]

Thankyou Sophie

[White_Rose]

Dear Bumbledbee

Hello and welcome to the forum. I am so pleased you found the energy to drop us a line. It is very hard when you feel as you do to get motivated to do anything. So many of us have been there and can relate to you and your experience.

May I ask a couple of questions? How long have you felt this way? I see you go to work and I wonder if you are taking time off at the moment. I ask because most employers require a medical certificate if you are away for more than a couple of days. So if you go to your GP for a medical certificate can you talk to him/her about how you feel? I think you will find the doctor very helpful.

It is hard when you feel so hopeless. I know because I have been there and so have many people who write on this forum. It sounds as though you are very depressed and need some medical help as well as talking to people here. Two different avenues of support but both can help you get through your day and start to get well again.

Do you have a family nearby? Telling someone in your family how you feel can be helpful as they can give you immediate support. How do your family, or friends, feel about mental illness? There are lots of opinions about this, some more helpful than others. I urge you to talk to someone who knows you and who you believe will listen to you. It's important that someone else knows how you feel and who will listen to you when you feel bad.

I do not believe you are worthless. This is depression talking. I expect you have heard it called the black dog and it's a good description. The dog takes up residence wherever it wishes and makes your life miserable. It whispers in your ear that you are worthless, that it's not worth fighting these thoughts, no one cares about you or so on. None of it is true. You are worthwhile and with help you will see you are a valuable person. It is a difficult road to travel I know, having been on that road myself. Would you please make an appointment to see your GP and talk about these feelings.

Write in here as often as you wish. We are always here though we may not be able to answer immediately. Call the Beyond Blue number 1300 22 4636 which is available 24/7 and chat to the wonderful people there.

I hope to hear from you again.

Mary

[bumbledbee]

Thankyou for taking the time to respond. I have been feeling this way for more than a month. It has been getting progressively worse over many months. I'm on holidays at the moment but will be back at work soon. I will make an appointment to see my GP. I live in a remote area, so my GP is actually a series of different locums. What has happened in the past with GPs is that I go in tell them I'm depressed and what medication I need. The appointment usually lasts about 10 minutes. I take the medication for a while and then start questioning whether I was actually diagnosed or if I just steamrolled the doctor.

[45femmumwife]

I too live remote and finding access to support is hard. I've tried 4 different doctors and 4 different psychologists and cant get appointments when I need them.
I tried medications for years to no avail. I'm studying psychology at uni now and gaining some insight into what is chemically happening but, this depression is so much deeper rooted in society.
I feel like i hit the ground hard 6 years ago. I still feel like I want to hide under my covers and block out this terrible world.
But... I get up, do what needs to be done, exercise, eat healthy (sometimes), read, work when I can get it and care for my kids.
I dream life won't always be like this weight I have to bear. I am grateful for the small blessings, I am safe, I can hear the birds, I have faith in a higher power I will survive this.
Perhaps there is something specific that is worrying or affecting you? Write it down.
Write it all down. Then beside each thing, write what you advise yourself to do about it or the opposite word to it, write but...
Best wishes and remember it ok to not be ok somedays. Good times are comming.