Feeling unfulfilled and lost..

[Simmy]

Hi,

I'm a new member, diagnosed with bipolar at 37, now 44 and have a great family, nice home etc, nothing much to complain about. My last bipolar depression was a few months ago and was very bad to the point I'm (now) consciously doing all I can to avoid another. I take meds, eat healthy, exercise, see my dr twice a year - all the right things. To cut a long story short I cannot find my passion and feel useless and unfulfilled. I only work 2 hours a week and want something more, some self satisfaction and enjoyment. I've tried so many things and never stick them out. I become bored. Now I sound like a miserable, whining child! Why cant I get my act together? I'm beginning to feel like a can't do anything and my confidence is waning. What's wrong with me? I been feeling like this for a decade and its now getting worse. 

[WallyR]

Gday Simmy... This is my first entry on the forum.. If I was going to post my own situation,I could just cut and paste your post because you have summed up where I am at as well.. I wish that I had the answers but I just wanted you to know that you are not alone Mate...

[Simmy]

Dear Wally

Thanks for your post, and how are you doing?

[Stitch]

Hi Simmy,

I know what it's like to want to have self satisfaction and to feel useful.

Have you tried voluntary work?  There are stacks of organisations who need volunteers to do a range of things like sorting & packing food hampers, administration work, driving people to medical appointments/social outings and serving hot meals.

I'm the same age as you but have no family at all & have lived with depression & anxiety for a long time.  I work every second Saturday for an organisation that provides meals six days a week to those in need.

It gives my life meaning and also something to look forward to.  

After working all week, sometimes it's hard to get up on a Saturday & go to work, but I always really enjoy my time there.  And I always feel better about my self too.

You can check out the Volunteer Victoria website for more information if you're interested.

Regards

Stitch