Feeling hopeless

[Montanna_1997]

Hi everyone,

For the past couple of months I have been suffering with severe anxiety and depression. I’m constantly thinking the world would be better off without me. I’ve seen doctors, mental health nurse and starting to see a new psychologist next week. (Also been prescribed antidepressants)

I just feel like I’m constantly going to wake up unhappy and i absolutely hate it 😞 I’m always affected in the mornings and sometimes I can’t even be bothered to get out of bed, eat or speak to anyone and I think that’s worse because I’m by myself with my own thoughts. My family is so helpful and it breaks my heart cause I can see how much it breaks my mums heart when this happens 😞

I just want to feel okay again

[Sophie_M]

Hi Montanna,
Thank you for reaching out. It looks like you are going through a difficult time with what you have described. It’s good to hear that you are seeing a psychologist and hoping the medications are helping manage the symptoms.
Please do not hesitate to call any of the below helplines when you are feeling overwhelmed and talk to someone about your feelings. This is will help not be stuck with your own thoughts.
Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 4636
Kids Helpline (for ages between 5 and 25) 1800 551 800
 
You may find the following threads useful to read:
 
Saying no to unhelpful thoughts - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/connect-with-others/online-forums/staying-well/saying-no-to-the-unhelpful-thoughts
 
Be kind to yourself - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/connect-with-others/online-forums/staying-well/be-kind-to-yourself
 
How do you make yourself do the things that make you feel better? - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/connect-with-others/online-forums/staying-well/adherence-compliance----how-do-you-make-yourself-do-the-things-that-make-you-feel-better
 
And the following sections of our website:
 
Recovery and support strategies - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/suicide/recovery-and-support-strategies
 
Stories of recovery and hope - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/suicide/stories-of-recovery-and-hope
 
Take care,
 
Beyond Blue

[Aaronsis]

Hi Montanna 1997

Welcome and it is so great that you have reached out to our community. I am so happy to hear that you have people on your team to support you at this time. Unfortunately it does take time and things like depression and anxiety are not an overnight fix, but you sound like you also have a wonderful family and have lots of support around you which is awesome.

Firstly can I say that the world will most definitely not be better off without you, I know that for a fact, your family will not be better off without you, that is also a fact. This is a time in your life and it is most certainly not your whole life. I am so very sorry that you are going through such a tough time, you sound like you have so many good things in place for your journey to wellness.

As Sophie_M has given you some great links to check out, I really cannot support her enough in saying that these call and help lines are so very wonderful and have great people who can help you through this.

Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 4636
Kids Helpline 1800 551 800

We are here for you Montanna 1997, to listen and to support you, I am wondering if you have some things that you do enjoy doing, it is ok if at the moment the answer is no...i was just thinking about ways in which you can help to retrain your brain so you are not preparing it for a hard morning, and not almost preparing it for unhappiness, sure this is easier said than done, but it does help. I am thinking of some apps that you could listen to at night like Calm and Smiling Mind that can help get you to a place of peace so that the morning does not look so gloomy.

We are here for you Montanna 1997, please come back to chat, if you feel you would like to

Huge hugs to you

AS