Random burglar,
Hi. Welcome to beyond blue. Have to say that you have a rather cool name. Can I ask where you got it from?
I was with my accountant doing tax, and talking about what I had been going through as it impacted on tax return. Anyway, to make a long story short, relating to depression, he said something along the lines that "just about everyone goes through that". In my head I was thinking "Err. You are so wrong".
In my head there are degrees of depression. Sure, there are people who will wake up one day and feel depressed, but they can get over it quickly? Then there are others who need to take ADs (like myself). And then everyone else somewhere in between, or worse than me. Our situations are all different, unique.
Have you tried the K10 test on the beyond blue web site? That might be a good starting point for you. It is quite short and you will get some sort of the recommendation at the end.
I too felt disconnected from my family (brother and parents); the wife and kids are different story. But I did not want to bother them with my problems. For the last few months I spend my Fridays with my parents as part of a transition back into work. We talk about anything and everything. And I realised where some of my traits came from. This is not a negative thing, but is just the way it is. And the relationship with my parents has deepened. My wife and kids know what I am going through.
If you feel sad, tired, confused, difficulty in concentration, it might be worth following up. The alternative is to try to do it yourself, and there is nothing wrong with that either. You could look at the threads here on grounding, relaxation, mindfulness and get some ideas from those threads? But that does not work, it is OK to talk to your GP about depression.
You are not alone here! The eating part aside, a lot of what you said resonated with me or my story. There are many other people on the forums who have been or in similar positions to you. Here you will be supported by other users who know what it is like. Even writing here can be helpful to get those thoughts out of your head. Also, people here will reply to you as well. We are listening to you.
If you want to share more of your story that would be cool. Save me telling you stuff you don't want to hear. But I do have 2 questions - (1) do you sleep OK? and (2) in what ways do you feel disconnected from family?
All the best,
Tim
