depressive episodes

[o0o0o]

Recently I have seen a psychologist to help we work on issues relating to adhd and anxiety. I've always had some level of depression but I haven't been comfortable enough to really discuss that with my psychologist yet.

Recently I had an intense period of depression which lasted 3-4 days where my mind was racing more than usual, i had some intense depressive thoughts and pretty much stayed in bed the entire time. I didn't really eat much and didn't shower during that time.

Something similar happened a few months ago. But instead of staying in bed I was working fifo and there was a few times I burst into tears unprovoked.

There was few times when I was working fifo where I felt that I had more energy than normal and was more productive. It was normally at the beginning of the day and I put it down to taking my adhd meds on an empty stomach or being on the wrong dose.

Are these signs of BPD or bipolar, and how do I talk to my psychologist about them? I made an appointment to see my psychologist earlier than planned during my recent depressive episode, and I feel like that was the wrong thing to do and that he will think that I over-reacted or am attention seeking.

I have never self harmed or attempted to take my own life, but I have had suicidal thoughts that I knew I wouldn't act on. I'm in my mid-20s.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi o0o0o,

Welcome to the forums and thanks for reaching out. I'm glad that you're here.

I'm also really glad that you made an earlier appointment with your psychologist, even though you're understandably worried about it. What you've described to me in your post sounds normal and not at all uncommon.

It sounds like when you get really depressed, it's super intense for a few days, but crying unprovoked is a bit unusual. But depression can look different in everyone. Maybe that was just your way of coping at that moment? Sometimes it can actually be provoked too but we don't realise what's going on because we're distracted - do you think that could have happened with you given you had your focus on the FIFO?

If your psychologist thinks that you over-reacted or are attention seeking, then you're seeing the wrong psychologist! You did the right thing.

I will let you know too that BPD and Bipolar are incredibly different and much more complex then having more energy then normal. BPD doesn't really connect with energy levels as it's a personality disorder but with Bipolar, the energy levels aren't just higher - they are extreme.

Hope this helps a little, look forward to hearing how you get on with your appointment.