Depressed but feel like I can't talk to anyone..

[April30]

I have depression and anxiety. And I'm finding life really hard at the moment but I feel like I can't talk to any of my friends because I'm so worried they'll just think I'm attention seeking, and everyone already has enough problems of their own anyway.. I feel so guilty for having depression and anxiety because I feel like I don't have an excuse to feel like this because I have a 'good' life, I know so many people have it so much worse than me so yeah I feel like what excuse do I have. I worry so much that I'm just making it all up because for years I thought something was off with how I felt and I tried talking to my parents but they just said I was fine. But finally years later someone convinced me to go see a doctor, who said I have bad depression and anxiety.. (Later my parents said they had figured that but hadn't wanted me to label myself with that.) But that just resulted in me feeling worse because I'm not fine, but I should be fine, but I'm not, but maybe I am, but I don't think I am, BUT I SHOULD BE... and feeling like what if I was making it all up and feeling so guilty. Even now after the doctor has told me I have depression and anxiety, I still feel so guilty and worry I'm making it all up.. So I don't know how to reach out to my friends..

[Mez79]

I feel like I'm in the same boat. You know there's something not right and it's not that you necessarily want someone to cure you in a sense but just be there to listen and not have to say much. And if you're like me you've always been taught that there are people worse off than yourself, which is true so we don't want to add to it. We're reluctant to lean on people we know cause we think they won't understand or get frustrated with us. I guess that is why we're trying sites like this to hopefully reach out to people who TRULY understand what you're going through.

[April30]

Yeah that's 100% exactly it.. Just someone to listen and not judge.. And not make you feel like you're just being stupid.. Cause yeah, it is true there are people far worse off..

Haha yep I guess that is why we decided to try sites like this..

[Mez79]

Well hopefully you can reach out here if not myself then someone on here willing to help. But just know I think I could be someone who understands what you're going through. As previously mentioned I've got health anxiety but am seeing a slow destruction of my old man battling deep depression.

[April30]

Thanks Mez79, appreciate it.

Wow that is really hard. I hope you can find support on here too.

Life sucks..

[Philomena]

Hi April 30

i think basically you have to regain confidence in yourself that you are fine. The first and foremost thing is not giving into your feelings and telling yourself I am going to stop worrying and start living.

Everyone at some point of their lives go through challenging times and get depressed and anxious some are strong to overcome these feelings others remain silent and suffer they are afraid to tell others what they feel . But it all depends on the way you think and feel. You can overcome feelings of depression . Get involved in activities you like and try to keep yourself occupied so you don’t get time to think. Go for a walk admire nature and thank god for all the good things you have. Think how blessed you are , when compared to others who are suffering much more than you in the world today.

Life is beautiful and every day is a gift make good use of it by reaching out to someone who needs your help in some way, by making others happy it will make you feel good. Don’t think of your depression live with hope. Hope does not have despair or depression , there is much hope for the future.

Lastly think positive and every morning tell yourself I am good, I am healthy this may help

[Mez79]

Hey April how you been this week?
Did you have a think about maybe doing an activity that you like. Is there something there where you live that do leisure courses like photography or art or cooking?
Maybe by joining a group you might find like minded people & hopefully you can make new friends. After each class it probably gives you a chance to say, hey let's head out for coffee etc.
Another alternative is do you have a particular friend that you're more comfortable with? Maybe test the water with them. Hit them up and do say hey I'm not ok. They may surprise you.
I feel that we restrict ourselves from possible access to help because WE THINK they're not going to care and therefore don't try leaning on someone for fear of rejection perhaps. We have to start being considerate of ourselves just as much as we consider others.
Hope this finds you well.
Mez