Hi Rupes79
I feel for you so much as you face this incredible challenge of coming to know yourself. Hoping the therapy is giving you resources to gradually do this. Coming to know our self can definitely be a slow and painful process at times, leaving us thinking 'Can someone just fast track this! It's doing my head in'.
Thoughts are definitely interesting things. I find thoughts and mindset can be reliant on so many factors: How much energy we've got, the kind of people around us (low vibers, high vibers, those who provide inspiration/revelation, those who provide challenges, ones who listen, ones who don't), whether we're stuck in some challenge we can't quite work out (trying to make sense of things) or being in a state of internal conflict (being in 2 minds about something) and the list goes on. The energy factor is probably the most significant for me. Do you find your energy levels dictate your mindset to some degree?
Feelings can also be just as interesting. I try to gain as much of a feel for things as I can. This can be a massive challenge at times. It's kinda weird but incredible at the same time how we physically get a feel for something. It's a bit like 'What is this sensation I'm feeling?' I've found the feelings that come with being in a challenge can vary throughout the entire challenge, depending on what it is. For example, say you have a lifelong friend who's pretty self righteous and rarely ever really listens. You've always tolerated their nature before suddenly you find yourself being challenged by their nature. At 1st you feel the sensations that come with not being listened to when you really need them to listen (that sense of frustration which can be uncomfortable). Then something else crops up, agitation. You question 'Why do I feel such agitation within me?' Ahh, that's the feeling of waking up to being constantly shut down. Very uncomfortable and triggering. Then you may start to feel sensations that come with guilt. What's that all about? The feeling that comes with being in 2 minds can be torturous, 'Do I 'abandon' them or tolerate the behaviour?' You're open with them about it and they shut you down by telling you you're too sensitive. Cue anger/complete intolerance and the energising thought 'That's it, I'm done'. Back and forth from revelation to torment until a conclusion's reached in that challenge, unless it's not. Cue the feeling of ongoing torment.
Do you find you're sensitive to feeling just about everything?
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