hello Redlight, I'm sorry that depression has got a grip on you, because that's what happens when you are stuck, not only in the middle of it, but also at the beginning and even when it's trying to hang onto you, we know what it feels like and we know how it dominates and controls your life, why, because that's exactly what all of us have had to go through ourselves, and yes, it's a real struggle.
You have so much that you are finding it difficult to cope with, 4 small children and being your age they would be young, I just wonder whether your doctor has been able to diagnose you, and its possible you are suffering from PND, although I'm not qualified to make this assessment.
As hard as it maybe, you need to see your doctor, who may prescribe medication and then refer you on to a psychologist, but please ask them about the mental health plan, this will entitle you to 10 free visits, but can I suggest you do a couple of things before this happens, firstly google K-10 test, this will give you a score out of 10, the higher the score the worse you are, but do this several times, not straight after the other.
Secondly, to make it easier for you, write down everything that concerns on a piece of paper, you can then hand this over to both the doctor and the psychologist, with the scores you have been able to get from the test.
It's virtually impossible for you to overcome this by yourself, so please don't let this linger on anymore, you've been brave enough to post your first comment to us, and thankyou for doing this, that was very courageous, now we want to help you. Geoff.
