Hi DoubleB,
Thank you for getting in touch with the supportive forums at Beyond Blue.
I have friends with BPD and have never considered them 'crazy' - usually I can relate to the intensity of what they are feeling and respect that it is generated within themselves and not at me personally. Have you let your friends know of your diagnosis? There is no shame in having a condition and friends are then able to relax any thoughts of how they may have upset you.
Saying/doing the wrong thing is not exclusive to you - we all make gaffs at times, although in your condition, you are likely to do it more often. That's not the issue here, however, as it is how you address these indiscretions that will restore harmony among friends and family. Burying your head in the sand will only elevate feelings of self doubt and may even upset your friends through your absence. You seem to have clarity around your condition, so explaining what you wanted to say or simply making apologies and moving on, will satisfy friends of your good intentions.
With practice, you are sure to accept yourself in the process and preempt rumblings in time.
Kind regards,
t.
