Armagedeon

[Armagedeon]

I have BPD and have just been very down for 2 and a half weeks. In that time I have self harmed. I was obsessed with my appearance during that time. Every time I looked in the mirror I wanted to self harm. I am now not self harming and am feeling reasonably ok. However I watch Netflix where all people are beautiful and it starts me obsessing about my appearance again. My conversation is also mainly focused on that and it is naturally really annoying my friend. Any suggestions from anyone? Just as a final note I consider myself one of the ugliest people on the planet. I am doing things to distract myself, but the later is always in the back of my mind. If anyone is feeling like this now or has felt like this in the past please let me know and help me out somehow.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Armagedeon, welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. We're so sorry to hear of the diifficult past few weeks you've had but are relieved to hear you're feeling somewhat better this week. It sounds like you're expereining many overwhelming thoughts and feelings and we can imagine this would be so exhausting. 

We'd recommend you reach out to The Butterfly National Helpline, they offer free and confidential support for anyone concerned about eating disorders or body image issues. Their specialist counsellors offer non-judgmental support over the phone, by email and by online chat - https://butterfly.org.au/get-support/helpline/. They also have some helpful articles that might be of interest to you:

• Boosting body image
• Modelling healthy body image
• Can body image issues be serious?

We’d also welcome you to reach out to our Support Service, which is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport.

We hope that you keep checking back in and let us know how you are going when you feel up to it. We're all here for you.
 

[Croix]

Dear Armagedeon~

I'd like to join with Sophie_M in welcoming you here, as usual she has given excellent advice,the Butterfly Foundation can be a very great help, they have the experience, and the understanding.

There were a couple of things you mentioned that I thought I might get your views about.

The first thing is the problem is always at the back of your mind, the second is you watch the very popular streaming shows, all of which have 'the beautiful people' in them, mainly becuse the advertisers say that sells better.

So what conclusions can you come to? Do you think watching a minute section of all humanity, all made up for the screen, is going to help or hinder your adverse views of yourself?

Secondly if you cast your mind back have you ever done anything that has made you forget yourself, even for a little while?

I guess you can see where I'm heading, but as I don't know your circumstances wonder if you might like talk about these things

I hope to hear from you again

Croix