Apathy

[tulpa]

I have no will or desire to get things done, sometimes I want things or want to get something done but then I just think why bother my psychiatrist tells me to develop an interest or a passion but I already have so many neglected interests and unfinished projects.

[Sparkles183]

Hi Tulpa,

i feel the same at times and when I do want to do something the lie that depression tells me is why bother. I know  this is something I have to overcome, I have so many unfinished projects and also half read books as well but what I do find when I am in a better mood, I have more desire to do things, so I know their is hope at the end of the tunnel it may take 6 months or even longer but things should get better.

my advise in the mean time is take baby steps go for a short walk, watch a DVD do some exercise go for coffee with friends what ever helps, just keep taking baby steps and try not to push your self to hard. As I know when I push myself to hard I get  disappointed and that is when I go Down hill...

I hope things get better soon 

take care 

sparkles 

[tulpa]

thank you for the quick response, I also have a large quantity of failed attempts at computer courses I guess it took me a long time to figure out I'm not actually good with computers, sometimes i think I might not be smart at all other times I think maybe the illness gets in the way

[Sparkles183]

I understand that completely, I believe that u can do almost anything if you put your mind to it.

Depression and anxiety is not a easy thing to live with as I am sure you already know, the illness can tell us that we are not good enough but the truth is we are.

I have accomplished many things in my life that both my doctors and school teachers  when I was younger thought was impossible. But still I don't think I am good enough and I am not as smart as others. I am sure people will be laughing at me when I say that  as they see me as smart but I myself don't see myself as smart.

 it just like being in a race it is another hurdle I have to jump, so I recently made it a goal with my psych that I will be able to go out and work. Because currently my anxiety says I am not good enough to work even though  I know it is a lie it is something big in my life I need to work on.

so u are not alone in this  race. there are many people on this forum that is going through or has gone through the same thing and we are here to support u and show a listening ear...

take care 

sparkles 

[Poodle]

Apathy is debilitating.

[JessF]

It can be, but sometimes when de[ressed I think we set our sights too high. Making goals small is the key. This can be as small as getting off the couch to make a cup of tea, or going outside for a walk. The wall is dismantled one brick at a time. 

[Blue-to-pink]

You have said what I've been feeling, Jess. Even making a cup of tea is an effort and an achievement for me. I have been feeling almost catatonic for the last few days. I take my meds daily so I'm not sure what brought this on. I hope it lifts soon. It's such an effort to pretend to be well.

[Bluebon]

Hi Tulpa, 

I'm confused as to why your psychiatrist told you to find something you're passionate about. Depression and passion don't tend to go together. Depression and apathy certainly do. 

I'm so flat and neutral about everything. I don't want to go on drugs. I wish I knew a drug free way around this.