Hello everyone
I used to have some problems when I wanted to stop for lunch at a cafe & feeling very self-conscious about it, especially going in alone & eating by myself.
It irked me that tables all have at least two chairs, like it is expected no-one eats alone. Then my eyesight was deteriorating & I realised I couldn't see if anyone was making faces at me anyway, (though, quite reasonably, I don't think all but a very few people thinking nothing better than to smirk at people, were going to be noticing me all that much), so then, I thought, what do their opinions matter to me anyway. & besides, I have paid for my food so I am jolly well going to eat it, in any way I find most efficient, given my eyesight, which I can do nothing about.
It' wasn't easy to do. At first I might have a coffee & raisin toast. A few successful snacks at cafes I liked, & I became bolder. Now I could have a whole meal... making asome mess while I eat, true, but really, I don't do so badly if I choose meals which are not likely to be sloppy.
Who knows? One day I may allow myself a sloppy meal & get some down my shirt & use a napkin to get most of it off & go on eating like it's all okay with me, so what are you looking at? (I'm sthinking) Mind your own business. That's what I aim for.
So let me at some of that butterfish too!
Moon, are you able to sit & close your eyes, then imagine you are outside your favourite sushi train store, & imagine, step by ste, what you will do when entering the store, if you have to wait, making your selection (you can buy as many or as few as you like in your imagination), then telling the person what you want & paying for them & taking your order out of the store? Then you can continue to imagine going to where you will enjoy eating them? I mean, try to feel the good about your accomplishment.
We can do this, Moon. If you like, make up an image of me in your mind to accompany you. Please give me red hair & cute claws, & a purple collar around whatever I'm wearing.
Hugzies
mmMekitty
