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[Christina85]

I wanted to try this out.

Ive had anxiety for over 5 years now, some days it's so bad I can't breathe, and sometime I can go for a week without it bothering me much...

but I always feel sick or there is always something wrong with me I go doctors around 4 times a month and it wasn't untill about 3 months ago the doctor asked me a few questions and then told me I have depression she was quick to give me some meds, I thought this would help. It made me ten time worse so I got off them after a week as the side effect were just horrible. I haven't gone back to that doctor and I don't really want to take mind numbing pills. I believe in feeling the pain as that's what makes us human right? Or I don't know. I dont really know how to manage my feelings anymore. I guess I do need help. I just don't know where to go or what to do. I sometimes excerise and that helps but most days I'm to tired after work so I can't always do that. I don't talk about it to my family because they think its all in my head and just to shake it off. But I get really down sometimes to the point of I need to lock myself in my room and go to sleep just so it can go away. Some days I sleep snd others my mind just doesn't sw to switch off. I think I have a lot of issues with my life but I don't trust aloof people to open up and speak to them sometimes it's easier to talk to a stranger I guess. Does anyone else feel this way? 

[geoff]

dear Christina, welcome to the site.

There are so many different types of antidepressants which I tried but the side-effects didn't agree with me, and the number would be in excess of 6 but I was advised to keep trying, so the one I am on now I have taken for years and now on the max dose.

I'm not pushing you to give it another go, but I believe it would be a good idea, and most side-effects disappear after a few days/weeks and you would probably be started on a low dose.

I take your point ' believe in feeling the pain as that's what makes us human right', well yes but after awhile that's what gets us down, because we know this pain becomes agony, so all we want to do is get rid of it.

Too tired to exercise after work or could it be 'I just can't be bothered' and if it is this then it's depression that is holding you back, and that's what this illness does to us.

I am so pleased that you have contacted us because at the moment you have no one who you can talk to, and hope that you I can hear back from you. L Geoff. x

[Doolhof]

Hi Christina,

Welcome to Beyond Blue. Thanks for sharing your story here. I am sure if you have a look around in the depression section of the forum, you will find plenty of people with all kinds of advice on how to cope with depression and anxiety.

You have many options to help you, you can try another medication, like Geoff mentioned, sometimes you have to try more than one to find what is right for you, also the side effects can be a bit horrible at first, but once you are used to them you will feel a lot more balanced.

Have you researched depression, more importantly how to overcome it? There are so many ways to learn more about this illness and anxiety as well.

Use the phone help lines and chat to someone with more experience and advice. Use the webchat facility.

Talk to you Dr and if you don't want to take medication, ask for other options, maybe a counsellor will help you.

Sorting out any issues you have is important, but suffering from emotional and maybe related physical pain is not necessary in my books. Recognise what is causing the pain and try to fix it.

I hope some of this has been helpful. Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

[CMF]

Hi,

I suffer depression/ anxiety. i understand being too tired to exercise but believe it is the depression stoping you  I forced myself to start walking daily last year and it helped. My dad suffered depression after my mum passed he would call an ambulance every 2 nd day or catch a tram to the hospital nothing was ever found but it was his security/ safe place.  People are dismissive when they haven't been through it they say " it's in your head" because they don't know what it's like. What and how you feel are very real to you, it's not made up or pretend, it's real. Maybe others think your life looks good and can't understand why you would be depressed. It's your choice re the meds but definitely exercise even just a few minutes each day and a good support network helps people who understand it's real and not in your head. You shouldn't make yourself suffer by feeling the pain but feeling it makes us realise how good we feel without the pain. You want to weather the storm, I get that. What sort of issues do you think you have with your life? We're here if you want to  share.

cmf