Hello,
i don’t think of myself as a shy person but often I will be so shy I can’t even look a person in the eyes and this person could be my best friend or my best friends boyfriend who I have known for a long time. I don’t know what happens but sometimes when I’m going out and I’ll catch a bus, I get awkward and all sweaty and feel like everybody in the bus is looking at me ( and I hate feeling self centred) I’ll constantly put my head down and even then I’ll feel as though all eyes are on me and “people think I’m weird” “stop doing that” “look this way” it’s as if I go robotic. it gets so bad most times that if I’m listening to music through my headphones I’ll put the volume all the way down because I feel as though I’m breathing too loud, like I’ll have to listen to myself breath. I have no idea what this is or if it means I have anxiety but i just feel like my friends don’t have this kind of problem and they say I over think stuff but it doesn’t help and it still always happens, ESPECIALLY when I’m by myself. I totally avoid doin things by myself because I know what I get like, but then again I avoid hanging out with my closest friends because I feel like I can’t even be around them without getting awkward and it makes me seem weird and like a bad person and I’m really not like that at all.
