Hi everyone.
So as you read from the 'title' bar I have trouble opening myself up and talking.
Ive had a lot on my mind, like trapped in my head for about three years. I can never get anything out. This is the first time I will tell a big audience that.
I was wondering if anyone else was suffering from this. I don't know if it is a mental illness or not, probably.
At times it's really hard. Things like being bullied makes it harder. Especially when in hard/difficult situations I tend to forget almost immediately what happened, which then makes me not even tell anyone that someone was being a big bully.
I really don't know what's going on in my brain. I also feel that I have anxiety and depression but have never been diagnosed because I do not want to see or talk to people. I don't know if that is related to that fact that I have experienced traumatic bullying for nearly all of my schooling life.
Its a new year and I need to try and focus on the positives in life. But I really can't find a positive.
I don't know what good complaining to you all about myself is but at least I did it.
What do you all suggest I do? If anything.
Thanks from the girl that like to hide in the shadows.
