Amali,
Thanks for sharing. It is very likely that nobody at all, aside from you, is even aware that you have a social anxiety problem. People are either dealing with their own insecurities, are not in tune with how others feel minute to minute, or can not recognize it in your behaviour as it is not obvious (to you it is, but to others, not likely).
Social anxiety is something you need to overcome by actually facing it. Many, many people have social anxiety and guess what? You would never know it! You will rarely be able to tell if someone is suffering from this. But the person suffering, thinks everyone is well aware of it, when they are not.
What is it that you are afraid will happen in a social setting? What is the worst that can happen? And if it does happen, so what? And if it happens again, who cares? How would you react, if whatever it is you fear, happens to another person in your presence, socially? It is likely you will help them, or be understanding, and encourage them. Most people, would react the same way. Is there really anything to fear?
You should definitely see a behavioural therapist for this, somebody who understands situational anxiety. This will help immensely. You can also learn calm breathing techniques, distraction techniques, ways to cope when the feelings come along. Coping mechanisms give you a sense of control, which develops into confidence and ultimately habit changes.
Life is yours, fears just hold you back. Face them, and you will overcome. Good luck to you.
Steve
