Hi StartOver,
Sorry about the delayed response - sometimes, for whatever reason, posts can get missed even though we try to look out for everyone.
I think you've made a really brave decision by wanting to follow a career path that is more in line with the real you. As someone who works in the banking industry but is more of a writer/artist, I totally understand the desire to change. It sounds like you've had a good amount of time to think about this and you're making a very well thought-out decision to stay on the path to change. I think that's really very commendable.
You mentioned you tried meds but they made the anxiety worse. Do you mind if I ask if you are still on them or if you've seen the doctors again?
Medication often have temporary side effects that can worsen symptoms briefly, but be better in the long term. Sometimes, that particular type doesn't work either and you need a different type. It is a bit hit and miss, but it sounds like you really want to be able to study. If you haven't already, it would probably be best to check in again with the doctor who prescribed the medication to you to see what they'd suggest.
Financially, I admit I don't know much about the specifics, but you may be entitled to government assistance. You could also consider working a different job part time while you study - something less stressful but which will give you a little bit of financial assistance too. There are also different study options, some cheaper than others, which could give you a different way into the exercise science industry, with a lot less stress.
I actually went back at the beginning of last year to do some post-graduate study. It was tough in the beginning for sure, but you once settle back into a pattern, you notice you don't actually need to give up a leg and an arm to do what you really want. And for the transition period, a GP or counsellor can be a real gem to have backing you up 🙂
James
