Hi,
I am so sick of my life being ruled by anxiety, I have so much going on in my life and just feel so overwhelmed. Today was really hard, I had to go to work but just freaked out and had a complete meltdown and resigned on the spot. I get so scared and terrified of the panic attack. I know that's what it is but I feel I am at a point where I just can't beat it and just want to run and hide and hope it will go away, but it won't. I overthink everything and can be such a negative person. I am actually so embarrassed to admit I have it. I can't eat certain foods because I get sick, so now a restricted diet too. Just a bit over it all. I just feel so hurt, and embarrassed, everybody says just get on with things and not to worry about what other people think. Supposedly I take everything the wrong way to and overthink everything. Sometimes I just wish I could have some peace from everything going on in my head, it just never stops and I am so angry at myself for being so stupid, knowing its anxiety but am letting it rule my life. I just wish I could wake up in the morning and it was gone, gone forever. I find it really hard to even leave home sometimes just that fear of being sick which has happened in the past just terrifies me. I have friends but am so embarrassed by it that I never talk about it.
