Panic

[Baby_Boomer]

Many years ago my home was raided by armed police, they had come to the wrong home. Since that time I have had anxiety and panic issues. Now in recent times the police have again arrived as part of an investigation they are conducting to do with a Royal Commission because of where my husband worked. I was forced to a investigative type interrogation, I had no legal representation as I could only have a support person who was not allowed to interrupt the interview. I did not have the right to silence and was threatened with imprisonment if I revealed anything said during the interview. I am back to where I started all those years ago and am feeling so overwhelmed by what has happened. My phone was tapped and I was under surveillance. I am now frightened all the time, I am scared to be home by myself alone, I can't sleep and am having panic attacks all the time. My doctor referred me to a therapist which has helped but I feel this is going to take a long time to recover from. I am getting good family support but because of the legal restrictions put on me I am not allowed to discuss a lot. I feel so violated because of what has happened to me and feel so helpless. I can't believe this can happen to a innocent person just because of where my husband worked.

[Girlbond_007]

Hi Baby Boomer,

I cannot imagine the type of panic you must be living with. I want you to know that seeing your therapist will help you. Perhaps you might need to discuss options with your doctor for medication if it's too much for you to control in the meantime.

getting better after a significant life event like this will take some time, don't be disheartened. Try to imagine yourself living with little to no fear, I do that sometimes.

trying to get back to some normality in your life is also an important way to heal. Do you have hobbies and or family: friends who you can visit or visit you frequently? Is it an option that you can move house or love with others to help alleviate some of the anxiety initially?

i went through a situation at my work a few years ago with a security company and we had a major bomb scare. The entire building was evacuated but our section because we were in a bunker style room which was flood and bomb proof. Being held in a situation against my will where all I wanted to do was run took a major toll on me. I was fearful for months to go back to work and constantly had nightmares. It's definitely not nice so I can sympathise a little.

thank you for sharing your story and please know that I am thinking of you

[blondguy]

Dear Boomer

I am not an expert in any way and your situation is complex and awful. If a person didnt get anxiety attacks after what you have been through it would surprise me a great deal. Obviously the legal matters are bad news but do you still have support from your husband in any way? Your family support is invaluable and you obviously realise the benefits. The panic attacks are awful....Ive had them since 1983 on and off and they are bad news...You have done well to jump on here. A sign of strength. Your doctor was right even though frustrating by recommending a therapist. Its not necessarily a long time to recover. The lack of sleep is an issue and only exacerbates the panic attacks. The good news though is that even a couple of visits to a good GP can make a lot of difference..

Kind Thoughts...Paul

[Bluey_moon]

Hi Boomer, 

Both Bond girl and Paul have given you great advice! 

How are you feeling now? 

Support is massively important! 

as is remembering, circumstances beyond your control have caused this situation, it isn't you they are checking out! Ten deep breaths, it can only get better. I think getting into routine and getting out continuing to live your life is important!