new to the site. need to reach out

[October14]

Hi everyone. I am new to this site and this is the first time I have ever reached out to an online community.

I've been battling on and off with depression and anxiety for years. 

 Today brings me here as I am having panic anxiety attacks again. I have been off medication since finding out I am pregnant. It's been ok but the last couple of weeks I have had anxiety attacks which leave me stressed out for days until I bounce back from it.

 In the last 24 hours, I've been thinking about too many things to the point of overthinking things. I am so worried that I am driving my self even more crazy and trying to reassure myself that I am good person and not everyone has to like me. 

Up to now I don't even know if my thread makes any sense.

 I am at work at the moment and struggling to concentrate.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

 xx

[CrashCoyote]

Hi October14,

Thank you for your post and congratulations on your pregnancy.

I presume your medication was prescribed. Did your doctor tell you to give it up? I would have thought even just weaning yourself off it would be the safest way to get your body used to not having it anymore.

Please make sure you get some medical advice about your own health and treatment from someone that understands your medication and any possible effect it may have on your baby.

Kind regards, John.

[geoff]

dear October14, welcome to the site.

I am interested in your comment just as John is, because what concerns me is that when you have the baby I am really worried about you getting PND, so we hope to hear back from you. L Geoff. x

[October14]

Hi

My medication was prescribed and my GP advised that I stopped them straight away when I found out the news.

I will be seeing the midwife next week and ask to be referred to something. I have been having bad anxiety attacks lately and I suppose a relapse.

I feel so guilty that during a time where I should be so happy, I am starting to feel miserable.

Husband asked last night what I was feeling - this has always been a tough one for me. I don't like saying out loud what I think or feel in fear that I will be labelled as a mental case and I don't particularly like worrying anyone. So disappointed that he got angry at me and called me "crazy".

I was hoping to see the midwife sooner, but I will just have to hold off for a bit longer.

Thanks for replying Geoff and John.