Hi. Over the past few months (especially since starting my new graduate job) I've been struggling quite a lot with anxiety. When I make mistakes at work I'm really hard on myself & wonder if my boss regrets hiring me. Some days I'm okay but when I have a bad day I've felt like I'm on the verge of a breakdown. one of the things I struggle with is I've been through so much worse - I was diagnosed with a rare cancer 10 years ago & have had several recurrences over the years - & yet my confidence in this job is just not there. I studied for years when I was very unwell to get qualified for this job, yet it's all so daunting. The other girls in the workplace are really close & I feel that I'm so different to them. Sometimes I feel like everyone at work thinks I'm stupid.
I've also recently started a relationship with a lovely guy who I've known for quite a while, and I'm so happy with that part of my life, but it feels like I just can't relax otherwise.
Anxiety is something that's not foreign to me; over the years it's plagued me especially with my health ups & downs. But even though now my health appears stable & there are no signs of cancer, I feel lost. And at time hopeless. And alone.
I don't want to sound self pitying, I'm just really struggling. Does anyone struggle like this at work? Or thinking about work? I am new to this forum so I haven't had a good look around just yet, guess I just want to know what helps others when they're feeling stressed/anxious/out of place.
I have had counselling in the past, and it's something I'm looking into again, have heard of some counsellors who work on Saturdays so that gives me hope.
Hope this hasn't been too long-winded.
