Hi Monicasanduw95
You sound like an incredibly sensitive person. We definitely need more of those folk in the world and perhaps a little less of the 'toughen up' ones.
I find one of the most challenging things about being highly sensitive is - it can mess with us in a number of ways. One of those ways involves extreme reactivity to sensory stimulation. For me, personally, it's sound. Certain sound related situations definitely have an impact on me. I'm not so good in shopping centres, especially food courts. At first it caused anxiety in me to the point where I felt like I was going to pass out. Then, after some trial and error I found I could handle the sensory overload through shifting my focus to the sense of sight. I know, sounds weird and a little simplistic. Instead of focusing on the overload of sound that was messing with my head and overwhelming my nervous system, I began to use sight to study individual people which created something like a pinpoint focus away from the sound factor.
The other thing I struggle with is my husband's car. I know, a strange one. I've never had an issue with V8 cars until I started becoming more sensitive. Now, when he starts the engine every morning I become pretty aggravated. It sends my heart racing and even creates some pressure in my sinuses (yes, definitely strange). I cannot go anywhere with him in that car because I am so sensitive to it that the vibration gives me a headache. I am confident in saying the neighbours find this car almost as 'disturbing' as I do 🙂
I find the thing with people who experience anxiety is they are very tuned into the energetic shifts in their body when sensory stimulation impacts them at times. Other folk aren't sensitive enough to actually feel these shifts. To be able to feel the systems in your body at work is rather incredible. It's kind of like a gift and a curse (for some) at the same time - to be so highly sensitive. Wondering if you've ever considered consulting someone who deals with understanding energetic shifts, such as a Tai Chi teacher. Tai Chi is basically about consciously dealing with natural energy shifts. It's less about the medical side of things. Yes, this is pretty outside the square but when inside the square has become so uncomfortable, sometimes outside is worth some consideration.
I know learning the energy aspect of self is not everyone's cup of tea but it can simply become one of the ways to mastering the self. There are definitely many facets to us.
🙂
