Lost

[Gracie_PY4]

Hi there, I’ve been struggling with anxiety and mental health throughout the years for a long time. I feel like it’s getting much worse, I have no motivation to talk to friends or make plans, I have to force myself. I even feel like I’m getting triggered by more and more things that my parents/people say in general conversations, which feels like everything in the long run. I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to. I feel completely lost and don’t know how to manage my life at points. Honestly I don’t know what to do.

[indigo22]

Hi Gracie_PY4,

Welcome and thank you for reaching out to us.

I am sorry to hear how lost you are feeling at present, it's never easy to make decisions that are in your best interest when you are in that state.

I guess my first questions would be:

Have you talked to your GP about how you are feeling?

Do you have any support in place in the way of counselling?

When we try to battle these types of feelings alone, they can start to spiral in a downward direction, then it can take more time to get back to stability again.

I would prefer not to make suggestions you have already tried, so could you perhaps let us know what you have tried and if you have found anything helpful in the past? We are here to support you, it does help though if we know what direction to take in that support.

I am happy to continue this conversation to look at ways we can help you to feel supported.

Take care of yourself in the meantime,

indigo

[navailableu]

i think, in my experience, if you go to someone to talk, even someone you dont think would listen, they would. people are much more compassionate than is made out and please reach out to one of your previously mentioned friends, as you will be better for it, prayers up to you

[Gracie_PY4]

Thank you

[Gracie_PY4]

Hey there,

so I have seen a gp in the past and I am on medication for my anxiety but at the moment it isn’t working but it has in the past. I see a EMDR specialist and psychologist (the same person 😂), as well as talk to my mum. However it’s becoming more difficult to talk to my mum because I feel like what she says makes everything worse and I start spiralling even more and get more anxious. Therapy definitely works. But at the moment I have just lost all motivation to do things and feel so much pressure to do it which makes me in the long run feel so anxious and depressed. I then end up feeling scared that I’m going to end up lonely, obese, trapped in my own shell and won’t be able to come out, incapable of doing life. I already feel like I’m failing, and sometimes I think what’s the point, I have had occasional suicide thoughts and some self harm as well. 

[indigo22]

Hi Gracie_PY4,

Thank you for your reply, it has helped me to understand your support needs a little more.

It sounds from what you have said that your medication may not be the right one for you anymore. I think your first thing would be to see your GP again and talk about your medication not working for you. It may be that you either need to change it or an additional one is needed to help you become more stabilised.

I'm glad to hear you are getting some help through therapy and EMDR, and that it is working for you.

I know when I was going through a particularly difficult few years, I also had suicidal ideation that lasted for a couple of years and it can be very difficult to get yourself past that stage. But it is possible, I have not had those thoughts for a number of years now. That is not to say I am completely well, just no longer so deep in the hole that I can't find a way out.

I am in my 60s and live alone, have done for a lot of my life on and off, this time it has been 10 years and I am very comfortable living this way, but I know that is not the case for everyone.

If you are finding it difficult talking with your mum and it is having a negative effect on you, what about talking to the helplines when you are struggling between therapy sessions. It is why they are there and there are a number of them to contact depending on your needs at the time so you can get some real time support. I have added a couple of them below.

It is not that you are failing, you just need some help to get back on track and that help needs to be caring and constructive in nature. Also have a talk with your therapist about how things are affecting you lately, they may be able to give you some tools that will help between visits.

If you need to talk to someone when having suicidal/self harm ideation, then I would suggest calling

Lifeline - available 24/7 - 13 11 14

If you need to talk to someone about anxiety or depression, then I would suggest calling

Beyond Blue - 1300 224 636

We are also here to support you, if you want to talk about anything, just reply to this message.

I hope this is of help to you.

Take care,

indigo

[Gracie_PY4]

Thank you so much for your support, and I’m really sorry to here that you went through a hard time for a couple of years as well, but also glad to here you’re on the other side of it all. 

I’m in the action of trying to get into my GP just might take some time just because they’re so busy, but I’m planning to see them as soon as I can, when I’m not working. I’m starting a journal to keep track of things and reporting back to my therapist. I also interacted with my friends yesterday however didn’t really enjoy myself, having some friends issues. But thank you for the helplines and the websites as well, I’ll definitely use them. I’ll keep in touch. I really appreciate your support.

[indigo22]

You are most welcome, it's why we are here.

Please do keep in touch and let me know how you are.

The Journal is a great idea.

Take care of yourself,

indigo