Hi Annebear lovely to hear from you. I had half my dream home, it was 5 acres around 7kilometres from town. I had dogs, cats, birds, rabbits and anxiety. I do not drive to relied on my ex husband to take me everywhere plus the anxiety made it hard for me to go through a checkout, cheap way to live ha ha. It was my undoing, I thought the further away I am from people the less stressed and anxious I would be. I was cut off from everything, I relied far too much on my ex and my son for company, when they were not there I gardened and looked after the animals but I always knew they would be back in the evening. Well other things played a part and my dream was shattered. We tried for 5 years to get a loan to build on the property with no luck, circumstances with work or changes in the banks way they did things. It put a lot of pressure on my relationship and with the anxiety on top, the enevitable happened, relationship fell apart, property sold, animals given away. I have no regrets I got to live my dream for 5 years so I was so lucky. I now have another dream and that is to own my own house and understand my anxiety. I would love to meet someone I could relate to but that is something that will happen if it is going to. What I am trying to say is sometimes a dream is wonderful but it does not always turn out the way you want. There are places that are just out of towns that are secluded yet close enough to town if you are in trouble. I am in the center of town now, big shock to the system but I know my anxiety has improved slightly as far as the check out is concerned because if I don't go shopping my son and I will not eat. I have not managed the dress shops yet or shoe shops, getting there. You will be in your own place with your animals and be free to be whoever you want to be.
