Hi Crannie,
Welcome to the forums - you are definitely with like-minded people here and feel free to brain dump here. You're safe here - we've either gone through something similar or going through it. Sometimes it is easier to fully express what you are going through when you have the luxury of anonymity on the forums.
Have you been struggling with extreme anxiety for a while or are you experiencing a particular rough patch at the moment?
As Sophie_M said, if you need to chat to someone, the BB Support Service has both a phone number and a webchat if you need to talk to someone in a bit more depth. They are a great bunch of people and a very helpful in providing advice and support. Have you also thought about speaking to your GP?
Otherwise, know that we are here for you on the forums. I have also suffered from debilitating anxiety and I know how overwhelming it can be and how it can manifest in different ways. I was hospitalised earlier this year for anxiety, so if you need someone to chat to on the forums, I will do all I can to support you.
Given you have two little kiddiewinks, do you have the ability to just take some time out by yourself and just have some breathing space? When I have super intense anxiety, I grab my noise cancelling headphones, go into another room, shut the door and lay on the floor and just focus on the quiet and my breathing. I do breathe in for four, hold for two, breathe out for six - it sounds basic but I have found that have the quiet and simply focussing on the counting of my breath just turns the anxiety dial down.
G
