Has Taken Years to Admit to My Anxiety

[Guest_1643]

Hi fellow travellers.
I'm Vanessa, I'm 35, living and breathing tonnes of anxiety. I have had the worst year of my life (2019... goodbye....) where it ended with needing to withdraw from work/study, and actually go inpatient. I had become a ball of anxiety, was barely sleeping, and kept pushing myself to achieve more and more. I thought everything was normal, but really I was so worried about every little thing, and got totally anxious about finishing my degree (never did!) and also about moving house. I stopped being able to function. A call to the Triage (Beyond Blue worker put me through) resulted in me admitting what was happening. I was very embarrassed, I thought, nice girls, good peple, don't get help, don't admit problems, just keep powering on. Anyway, I nearly lost my life with that attitude. Really scared posting here but i've overcome worse....basically just wanted to ask if anyone else had difficulty acknwoldging their anxiety, and took a while and bumps to get there? I had to get to such a low to actually open my eyes and realise that it's not normal to not eat/sleep for days and to never socialise and barely have any fun. Thank you for reading... deep breaths, clicking post!!

[Matchy69]

Hi thanks for your post.It is great you have posted here seking help.I have anxiety and have it as long as i can remember.It took me years before i was game to talk to a doctor about it and seek help.I also didn't finish school or a college course i started because of my anxiety.

I do not have a social life and never able to keep friends due to my anxiety.

This is a great place to come and talk as i found very caring non judgemental people on here.

Take care,

Mark.

[Gambit87]

Hi

Good on ya for seeking help! As matchy said - The beyond blue forums are a great place to come and talk.

It took me having a breakdown after years of repressing depression and anxiety for me to get help I need.

I always put it down to just 'having a bad day' and just moving on. That bad day turned into bad days and I just put it down to having a bad run and moved on. I never talked about it because I didn't know who to talk to and didn't believe myself to be worthy to actually talk about my problems.

Thats all changed now! my eyes are open, I openly talk about my feelings.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Mark thank you for your message. I am touched to see that other people feel the same and that it can take a while to ackowledge this stuff, you sound like you have shared some of my experiences. I'm sorry you also suffer anxiety and hope you

[Guest_1643]

Hi Mark and Gambit 87. Thank you so much for replying to my post. It is not often I get to share and hear that people can relate. It's nice to hear that this place has a non-judgemental atmosphere - . Thanks Mark for sharing your positive experience about getting support here.
Hi Gambit I love what you wrote about feeling like opening your eyes now and talking about feelings. It gives me hope.

[Matchy69]

Hi Vanessa always feel free to post here and plenty people with great advice.I like to just write a post and let it all out and dosnt matter if someone replys or not.Plenty of people on here like me who know what is like to have anxiety and it is nothing to be ashamed of.

Take care,

Mark.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Mark, thanks it was nice to get your reply. You are kind to help me and welcome me to the forum.

🙂 Vanessa

[Gambit87]

Sleepy21 said:
Hi Gambit I love what you wrote about feeling like opening your eyes now and talking about feelings. It gives me hope.

Theres always hope! For the longest time I felt like I was on the vast ocean in just a little row boat without direction going no where. Now I feel like I have a guiding star, a lighthouse and a billion stars helping me navigate life.

🙂

[Guest_1643]

The support of the universe 🙂 Hope is so fragile. I find that it is someting I have to perservere it. But I did hear that HOPE is a key ingredient in recovery, and helps us all move through our painful periods. I liked your metaphor about the billion stars. It's great to be strong and fight, but I like the image of having protection and guidance, a safety net, as we coast through life