Hi MissJ94
Can't say that I blame you for looking forward to some relief. It does sound stressful, what you're managing to try and face in the coming weeks.
Do you ever question the systems that are set up when it comes to certain challenges? I can't help but wonder who set up a system that has you getting up at 4am before managing to try and cram as much info as possible into an 8 and a half hour day. Are they trying to induce physical and mental exhaustion? While you might hear those around you who have been through it say 'Oh, we've all been through that. You just gotta suck it up and deal with it. Stop being so dramatic', I'd question them too. It's kind of like the rite of passage involves intolerable conditions which could actually be managed differently, yet no one goes on to change the system while people such as yourself suffer through it with the stress and exhaustion. Could it be you're actually more sensitive to a system with a variety of faults? You can feel the faults more than most.
Seeing you can feel the faults, can you imagine how you'd begin to manage them? Perhaps you don't want to manage them, being left to seriously wonder whether this course and career is actually for you. If you do want to push through, have you considered looking into how the more sensitive people have managed it in the past? Cue the internet. I imagine there's got to be something out there when it comes to how people who are more sensitive to stress and exhaustion have coped in that field you're in. Some tips could be so outside the square to to the point where you'd never have considered them in a million years. There may even be tips on 'How to become more emotionally detached', so you're not feeling so much. As long as you can switch off 'detached mode' at the end of the shift, it may not be a bad thing to consider mastering as an overall tool in life. It's almost like finding your auto pilot function (mental processing without emotion or feeling). Is this something they teach in the course you're undertaking, how to solely cue the analytical mind?
Have you pinpointed all the things you need to manage in this challenge, such as time, emotion, exhaustion, energy input to combat exhaustion, how to manage thoughtless desensitised co-workers who've forgotten what it's like to be in your position etc? With that last one, these kind of people trigger me. I find them hard to tolerate. I must say I'm blessed to work in a job where my co-workers have a good memory.
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