dear Panda and Wonderer, I feel as though I may as well reply to the both of you as you both feel as though you are in a desperate situation, and to be honest it seems that way.
Please there is no need to be nervous, it's a friendly site where you vent to those that have experienced it all ourselves.
A lot of us are in denial always believing that it may not be true on how we feel, until the day comes, and crunch we realise that we need help, but we don't want to get any support from our family, because you feel as though they won't believe you and just trying to get attention.
Well 99.999999% of the time it's not, we are suffering inside so badly that we may do things or make comments which people can interpret into another meaning, which then means they don't understand exactly what we are trying to say.
This illness which comes under the description of depression whether we like it or not can happen to anybody, it doesn't matter if you are wealthy, healthy, have a good family, or job or a string of friends, anxiety just like depression can hit us without any warning, and there are no obvious reasons why, so this is why no one would ever believe what we are saying, so we decide to keep it quite.
When this happens only means that we begin to get these physical problems, so now is the time you need to seek help, firstly from your doctor, but please understand that any friends that you may confide in may disappear, so be prepared for this to happen, it is sad but this normally happens.
We tend to always blame ourselves and say 'it's my fault', but please understand that it is not your fault at all, because this illness is just so strong it is capable of inflicting it's claws onto absolutely any one it wants to.
I just want to get the ball rolling here, and hope to hear back from you both. Geoff.
