Before I start I want to say there is no need to reply to this. I am merely venting about my feelings and I do not want to burden anyone with feeling like they need to respond. However, feel free to post your own feelings on this thread.
Anxiety has taken so much from me. My happiness. My joy. My independence. Friendships. My love for activities. It has taken over my life. The mere task of going out by myself is overwhelming. I avoid social events because I don't want to feel the lack of control that anxiety induces. I have lost so many friendships because of my anxiety.
I just feel like I am stuck in concrete while the rest of the world moves around me. I am slowly drowning in silence as anxiety has become my constant companion. It is hard to remember the times that I was not anxious as they are very rare. The physical impact of anxiety is exhausting. My chest is constantly tight, my breathing shallow. My stomach in knots. What kind of life is this?? The anxiety and thoughts can become so rapid and overwhelming that I feel like slamming my head against a wall. Maybe then it will be quiet for a bit.
I have began to reach out to services but I know as much as they are helpful that my anxiety will always be with me. Acting as an anchor that weighs me down as I suffocate. Even now as I write this I am anxious. My heart is racing. This battle is exhausting. It tears me down little by little. I have so much admiration for those who fight this battle as well. Who knows how my battle will end. Which side will win.
"but if I sit in the rain maybe I can drown in something other than my own thoughts"
To end this on a more positive note, I hope u are all well.
