Hello All
I've had daily anxiety for coming on 8 months now, I see a psychologist on a monthly basis however his usefulness seems to have come to an end and I just don't feel like I'm getting any better.
Everyday I wake up and get ready for work, feeling like I'm a bomb that could go off at any moment, I quickly prepare myself and head off for the 40 minute drive to work, as soon as i get on the freeway, I feel isolated, like if something serious happened, nobody could help me and that the ambulance is too far away to get to me in time, I practice the method of challeging this thought, sometimes helps but still maintain the tight chest and thoughts of impending doom but I manage, I get to work and seem to get through the day okay as I'm generally distracted working. The end of my shift comes near and is followed by further anxiety about the drive home, will I have a panic attack while driving? how will i cope? what if something else happens? I make it home and feel at ease for a moment, then feel on edge while in an empty house, nervously waiting for my dad to finish his shift, I try to keep distracted until he gets home but now have formed a dependance of other people to make me feel safe, so if something terrible did happen, they could help me. I can't seem to shake the constant chest pains, the changing symptoms on a daily basis, constantly finding peace and making slight progress, then having it all crash down when one day is worse then the other, I just don't see myself ever feeling myself again, no matter what techniques i practice, no matter what ways to use to change my thinking, it always seems to just come back again...
