Does anyone else have this type of "Anxiety"

[Hamada]

I don't know where to turn anymore, Im seeing multiple therapists, psychologist, and psychiatrist, I'm on medication that is being tapered up slowly but none of it seems to help, my anxiety is constant, I can't stop thinking about my thoughts 24/7, am unable to enjoy or do anything without thinking about the anxiety or being aware of my thoughts that I'm thinking, I can do things for hours straight and have no changes but the "anxiety" is still there, I'm not even sure it is anxiety anymore, I was having panic attacks 4 months ago after an overdose of stimulants, but before that, I never felt anxiety, now like I said above, it's just constant, I'm always thinking about the anxiety even while doing things and everything and nothing seems to "Trigger" it, there isn't a single activity I can do that I'm not thinking about it or how the anxiety can be there.

I don't even know what my thoughts are really about anymore since all I think about is anxiety and when a non anxiety related thoughts pops into my head I immediately take notice of it and realize i'm distracted from thinking about it, I just don't see exactly how I get out of this after 4 months of it, it just seems like this is my life now and no amount of medication or therapy is working, the only thing that seems to of worked is that I can use my computer and watch TV sometimes it's just constant from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep.

Has anyone else had this type of "anxiety", is the damage already done at this point where I won't be normal again and never be able to switch it off to be absorbed by anything else other than the anxiety cause I really just don't see a light at the end of the tunnel, I don't even see the tunnel anymore this "anxiety" is just all-consuming all day every day and there's not even any physical symptoms apart from a slightly elevated heart rate that is probably just my normal heart rate at this point.

I just want to see if there's anyone out there that has had this and got better or at least learned to enjoy life with it cause I just don't see a future for myself anymore apart from this.

Thanks.

[44Max44]

For a second there I thought I stumbled across one of my old posts...

Yes, I've experienced exactly this before. I went through a really bad bout of Health Anxiety last year, and I found that the ONLY thing I could do was focus on my thoughts and my anxiety and nothing whatsoever changed that. Just like you, whenever a non-anxious thought popped into my head, I'd instantly notice it and get back to being anxious. The LACK of being anxious made me feel MORE anxious... it was a never-ending cycle...

I remember what started my health anxiety clear as day, it was my 20th Birthday and for some reason the night before I had convinced myself that I had cancer. Because of this, my entire birthday was spent just worrying about this, and I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I was just a wreck. From then on, it snowballed. It seemed like every other day I came up with a new health problem I 'could' have. I'd get one thing checked out and cleared by a doctor, and that fear would get instantly replaced with another one.



The good news is, nearly a year later, I can go about my daily life without being anxious constantly. I do still get health anxiety and just general anxiety daily, but it's nowhere near as severe or as frequent and it doesn't rule my life anymore.

I never ended up going to therapy or taking medications or anything like that, the main things that helped me was Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, 'The Anxiety Guy' on YouTube, and these forums. It was a gradual road to recovery, but I got there in the end. CBT techniques are definitely what helped me out the most, though.


Just like you, I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I had lost all hope, but I got there in the end.
It's not going to be like flicking a switch, one day you're anxious the next you're recovered, it took me a good few months of practicing the CBT techniques to get to the point I'm at now.



I wish you all the best, mate.

[Monicas]

Hey guys. I am also suffering from constantant anxiety. It is ruining my daily life at this stage. It feels like your life is over as you constantly suffering. It is very comforting knowing I am not alone.

[Hamada]

Thanks for the reply man makes me feel a bit better was yours as constant as mine was just about general anxiety, or was it mainly focused on your health? Mine is just completely aimless and i think thats what causes it.

I still am not anxious about things even squaring off against a coked out woman basher last week and an not a nervous person by nature