Hello and welcome Brokenpieces to our caring community here at BB;
It sounds as though you've got quite a bit going on there my friend. Invasive thoughts/voices definitely can be annoying, frustrating and concerning.
My name is Sara (Sconnor) and although I've had similar issues to deal with, I'm not a professional and can't refer you to medication or anyone specific. As a peer support person though, I can get you started by directing you to our links below and counselling service on 1300224636.
Each person has some level of internal self talk, but when it gets out of hand and you're to the point of screaming at yourself, (I've been there believe me) it's time to speak to your GP. It can be hard to start with disclosing this sort of stuff, but the benefits of a diagnosis and health care plan including medications and referral (if necessary) to relevant psychologists/psychiatrists, is well worth biting the bullet. Your GP has heard all this before.
The goal should be your holistic well being; this trickles down to relationships, work, self esteem/worth and quality of life. Living with invasive thoughts for the long term without support isn't productive or healthy; early intervention is so important.
When I first had my breakdown 2 yrs ago, my thoughts were invasive, delusional and erratic, causing me such fear I didn't think I'd ever get better, but I have. I learned really amazing strategies to at first, manage and cope with the symptoms, and then gradually it became a wonderful habit like driving a car. Those thoughts don't occur anymore, but occasionally it pokes its head out. I swiftly use my tools and it's gone.
There's hope...you had the courage to come on here and ask for help. That's a great start ok? Keep the momentum going. Post on here whenever you want; we're hear to listen and care about you. Well done and good luck!
Sconnor
