Yes I did make the call. she was fine, let me vent it all out which is what I needed Have calmed down quite a bit now, at least not in the middle of a panic attack. they are so horrible. I always feel the need to talk talk talk to someone "safe" and best that it is someone anonymous.
she suggested what was elevating my panic and making me worse, was not coming to any decisions at all...and it had dragged on so long over weeks it was the indecision and over thinking about possible bad outcomes that was distressing me more than any actual result that may, or may not , arise from any decision She said I would feel better once a decision had been made - at least I would not be whirling around in that horrible limbo land full of unknown demons.
I wish I could be strong like other people, say "I want to do this" or "this is what I want and what I am going to do" not caring what others thought. I am so tired tonight. I really need a rest tonight. good night.
