Dear Lucyyy~
It is a horrible thing to happen to you and I can only imagine that not only do you have the hassles of going to a new place, but are wondering if your mental health problems will always be a bar to a close relationship.
Your conditions don't have to be permanent as others have said. You have mentioned having health anxiety, and that had manifest itself in terms of being threatened by eating, medications and other problems. You also have had that extreme reaction to weed and that has left you thinking it might never go away.
Well, your post on 1 July was a most hopeful one. You had realized that things do not suddenly disappear overnight and that by talking sensible precautions and having an expectation things can improve immensely over time that you were starting to cope well.
It is sad that just as you were starting to get on top of things your boyfriend has thrown in the towel. Yes, it is true for anyone to live with a person with such strong anxieties it can be hard, but by no means impossible. One can bear a genuine concern for the other person and can even take pride in being a positive help.
I can remember my girlfriend, who became my wife, had very bad asthma and I'd have to take her down to the hosiptal when all the normal medications and procedures at home were not working.
I guess I could have looked at it as a hassle, but instead wanted to comfort my gf and help her to get to the place where relief was possible. Surprisingly it helped us form a closer bond
So take heart that even if you do, from time to time in the future, have bad episodes there can be a person who understands, is steadfast and cares.
With medications, maybe in time you can consider a cautious approach rather than a blanket ban -what do you think?
Croix
Do you have anywhere to go to? A parent or friend's place?
