Anxiety

2021 Lost my mind and will how to get through

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Hi Everybody, I started this year getting dizzy spells daily and being a google doc I went to the gp with the thought I had Vertigo. He sent me to a ent specialist who told me I didn’t. Driving a truck for a living I needed to find out the problem as... View more

Hi Everybody, I started this year getting dizzy spells daily and being a google doc I went to the gp with the thought I had Vertigo. He sent me to a ent specialist who told me I didn’t. Driving a truck for a living I needed to find out the problem asap as it was starting to get dangerous for me to be on the road. I had another doctor when went back to the gp and after listening to my symptoms put me on antidepressants and said they would start working after 4 to 6 weeks. After a week the dizzy spells were starting to subside and we’re all gone by the 3week mark. After the 6th week it was like a fog had been lifted from my head and I could see my life to this date clearly( Anybody had this?) and starting studying anxiety symptoms etc. After a life of paranoia,mistrust and self medication I thought now I would be able to see a way forward.. Big Mistake, I have been in a slow decline to now,depression , stronger thoughts of mistrust and anxiety. I have a business in debt, limited friends who I find hard to trust and my father passed away from dementia in October. After a shitlife due to a undiagnosed mental heath problem, ongoing alcohol and drug addiction and the death of my father I am finding it Very hard to go on or finding the will to live. I have a meeting with a Mental health group on Tuesday so hoping it will help..any stories of how you got through the hard times would help. Thanks

Regrets caused by anxiety

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I’ve felt stuck and fearful in my current job as a visual designer for a long time. I’ve been there 15 years now, and have become comfortable even though there is no advancement opportunities financially or in title. I’ve spent the last 18 months ups... View more

I’ve felt stuck and fearful in my current job as a visual designer for a long time. I’ve been there 15 years now, and have become comfortable even though there is no advancement opportunities financially or in title. I’ve spent the last 18 months upskilling and applying for jobs in UX, but each time I get closer to actually getting a job, either through interviews or talking with people in my network, my overthinking and anxiety take control and destroy everything. I am pretty much saying no to jobs because of my anxiety. The latest one is the one that has really caused me sleepless nights and some pretty dark thoughts about myself. This was a UX designer position with a local company that has offices all over the world. It was a big pay increase from what I’ve been stuck on for years as well. Pretty different to my current job that consists of three people. After speaking with the company recruiter a couple times, he and I really got along and he alluded that I pretty much had the job before my interview and we just needed to go through the interview processes. At the thought of change, and fear of failure I thought of everything wrong with the job, panicked and withdrew my application. The regret is now eating me alive at the opportunity I threw away. It’s impossible to know how crippling and controlling anxiety can be if you don’t live with it. I now see the person who has the job and she has absolutely no experience compared to what I offered, but in her post on LinkedIn she’s beaming with confidence and happiness at her achievement and screaming it to the world. It makes me so, so depressed and angry at myself for letting myself and my wife and kids down each time I do something like this. In hindsight compared to the other jobs I am now looking at, it would have been a really great start to a fresh future for me. Now I feel everything is ruined and I can’t stop ruminating on my failures.

Where to begin or what to think

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I am 26 year's old, I am behind with my driving licence and owning a vehicle, and I have to have x2 medical review's every year per 6 month's each, I also have to complete a occupational therapist assessment for a of and on road at the moment too I a... View more

I am 26 year's old, I am behind with my driving licence and owning a vehicle, and I have to have x2 medical review's every year per 6 month's each, I also have to complete a occupational therapist assessment for a of and on road at the moment too I am living In a continuous quarter life crisis since 18, I don't have conventional Interest for entry Job's, or for University or Trade's at TAFE, I am 26 now and obviously without education, but more so without entry casual work history, and only Just 11 month's volunteer In a bull** saver's role that I didn't entirely at mostly at all like or want to continue. I would prefer part time Job's for the guaranteed shift, schedule and flexibility with a MIS diagnosis of schizophrenia, I have been treated for over 8 year's continuously, and I am now stuck on medication, I have contracted pre diabete's Type-2 and had my gallbladder removed also too I wanted to be a professional rapper and guitar player and write comedy Joke book's as a recreational creative passionate hobbie, but have some form of a conventional regular life with full time security and flexibility, and with misfit friendship's, and formulate my driving by now I have a selfish narcissistic father, and a vague mother, and I only have my brother otherwise

Feeling good and trigger

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Hi all, just wondering if anyone else finds that feeling good can trigger anxiety?? I know it sounds silly but I find that when I get back on top of things I seem to increase the self checking which ultimately talks myself back in to a spiral. I am d... View more

Hi all, just wondering if anyone else finds that feeling good can trigger anxiety?? I know it sounds silly but I find that when I get back on top of things I seem to increase the self checking which ultimately talks myself back in to a spiral. I am doing EMDR work with my psychologist on it but still seems to happen.

Imposter Syndrome???

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Every time my closest friend tells me nice things to try and help me feel better, I feel like she's wrong and I'm the cause of it. I feel like i have and am still deceiving her into thinking I'm a good person/friend. I do all i can to convince her i'... View more

Every time my closest friend tells me nice things to try and help me feel better, I feel like she's wrong and I'm the cause of it. I feel like i have and am still deceiving her into thinking I'm a good person/friend. I do all i can to convince her i'm a bad person, because otherwise, I feel like I'm cheating and lying and denying her the truth. It's like I want her to hate me, even though that would be terrible. She was telling me how i don't just talk about myself, and instead talk about other good things with her. I wrote this to her (she lives overseas) "Don't lie to yourself like I ever actually engage in conversation about something that isn't just my issues and problems. Cause I could lie to myself, but I don't want to. Maybe it would make me feel better, but it's not true." I feel like a imposter, but when I look up imposter symptom, usually people feel this way but are scared about people finding out. For me, I feel like an imposter, and want the people i'm close to believe it too. But at the same time, I'm scared that when she does believe me, she'll just leave. I feel the consequences of both choices the same, it just hurts no matter what I do. I think this is in the right spot...it is an anxious thing right. Sorry if it isn't.

Agoraphobia

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Despite being a nurse I am so scared of catching covid 19. I looked after a man that had multi organ failure just as he became covid negative. I’m triple vaxed and my family is double vaxed. My state has been safe from covid 19 till the last few week... View more

Despite being a nurse I am so scared of catching covid 19. I looked after a man that had multi organ failure just as he became covid negative. I’m triple vaxed and my family is double vaxed. My state has been safe from covid 19 till the last few weeks since borders opened up. We now have a lot of cases here. I am so scared to go out anywhere. I had to go to the supermarket Christmas eve to buy some food and as soon as I walked in there was a huge line up at the check outs and people everywhere. I started to panic and nearly walked out but I knew I needed to buy food so I had no choice. As I was walking around the shop I kept on tearing up, luckily my mask hid most of my face. My daughter is due to give birth any day and I’m so scared of her giving birth on her own if we get it and also worry about the baby’s wellbeing.

What's the point?

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What's the point to life? Why does it hurt so damn much even when you have tried your best?

Why does my anxiety get better at night

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So a bit of a backstory. I have a 14 month old daughter and since her birth during the pandemic i have had on and off feelings of anxiety however two weeks ago i feel like my world spiralled. i was sitting and chatting to a friend and suddenly felt l... View more

So a bit of a backstory. I have a 14 month old daughter and since her birth during the pandemic i have had on and off feelings of anxiety however two weeks ago i feel like my world spiralled. i was sitting and chatting to a friend and suddenly felt like i was going to pass out and panic began and i started hyperventilating. My friend had to call an ambulance and i had to stay for two days as they ruled out any serious conditions. Nothing major other than low iron, low vitamin d. since the hospital visit i have developed a fear of passing out and my days are now filled with panic to the point where my husband has had to take time off to take care of our daughter. My anxiety seems to be worse off in the morning and better at night when my daughter goes to sleep. I have started on anti-depressants and hoping to feel some kind of relief from this ongoing panic i feel during the day. I have never felt anything like this in my life. I’m confused as to why my anxiety gets better at night and worse the first thing i. The morning. Has anyone else experienced this? My doctor said it could be postpartum depression or even due to covid and not being able to have much of a social life. I’m so confused as to what led me to this point

I got a dog a year ago and it still makes me anxious

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I got my first dog over a year ago and I have felt an incredible amount of anxiety since getting it. I thought these feeling would subside as I got used to having a dog around but they haven’t. The stress is there everyday when I have to leave for wo... View more

I got my first dog over a year ago and I have felt an incredible amount of anxiety since getting it. I thought these feeling would subside as I got used to having a dog around but they haven’t. The stress is there everyday when I have to leave for work and even at night I worry about the smallest things, like what if he cry’s at night. I don’t know what to do as we have made the choice to get a dog and look after him for his life. my partner didn’t want a dog either so all the responsibilities are on me so I feel a tremendous amount of guilt for being so anxious everyday about it. thanks for reading

bad day

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Haven't been on BB for a while but really 'suffering' the last month. Always have depression but last couple of days feeling really anxious. Making me feel sick and spaced and weird. I am sure it is the time of year. I don't have family and i don't '... View more

Haven't been on BB for a while but really 'suffering' the last month. Always have depression but last couple of days feeling really anxious. Making me feel sick and spaced and weird. I am sure it is the time of year. I don't have family and i don't 'do' Christmas and normally i am absolutely okay with that but this year i can just feel it kind of looming. Friends always invite me to their house but i would never do that as i would feel like an intruder (regardless of the fact they are genuine and definitely wouldn't view me as that). Plus when i force myself to go out i like to go by myself so if i feel like i am about to 'crash and burn' that i can leave without affecting anybody else. There it is, todays state of mind!

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