Anyone anxious about their anxiety?

[Nervous_Girl]

This probably sounds like a weird question, but do many people worry mostly about the fact that we have anxiety? I am totally consumed with it. 

I have suffered with GAD for over 10 years now and there is not a day that goes by where i don't constantly worry about how i feel, why do i feel like this? Am i getting worse? Is it normal to be worried about certain things or is it my GAD. I am constantly questioning myself and exhausting myself worrying about whether i am feeling normal on any particular day.

If anyone has found a way to get past it i would love to hear some ideas.

[beingbyrne]

When I had severe anxiety, I was worried about the symptoms I was having. The constant stomach pain and nausea, not being able to focus on anything and feeling panicky all the time made me feel more anxious. So it was like a vicious cycle for about 2 weeks before I started taking some meds for it. And what a relief that was.

Are you taking medication for it? If not, don't put up with it, it is a horrible existence and you deserve better than that, so go ahead and demand something for it from GP. Everyone had the right to have peace. Or if you are already on meds, then obviously it's not working and you need to try something else. Being highly stressed all the time is a health risk, so don't except it. 

I hope this was helpful to you, this is just my perspective on the issue as I have had suffered from GAD and I am looking forward to hearing from you again.

Take care and hugs from beingbyrne

[Nervous_Girl]

Thanks so much beingbyrne,

I am medicated, i have been on a bit of a roller coaster of medications for the past couple of years.

i started medication about 10 years ago with a low dose, which gradually was increased as my anxiety increased until my doctor wasnt comfortable increasing it any further. Then it was on to the next medication which i tolerated for about a year with some really terrible side effects. I decided last year after that medication i didnt want medication anymore and decided to try medication free, so my doctor assisted me with gradual reduction down to nil but also gave me a script for another medication known to have few side effects just in case. 

Sadly after about 6 weeks medication free i was extremely ill and couldnt eat due to extreme nausea from the knots in my stomach. I started the new script and after another month i was suffering from agoraphobia and couldnt do my housework. It would take me a few hours just to get to the shower and i would curl in the bottom of the tub and sob uncontrollably.

This somewhat alarmed my doctor who sent me to hospital to have my medication sorted and my GAD stabilised. But I left of my own accord before I was properly stabilised after 3 weeks. Then went to see my doctor a couple of days later and he increased my medication. 

I have been on that same dose since mid last year, but i can feel myself going backwards. I have seen a wonderful psychologist who has helped me alot but i cant afford to see her anymore, even on the mental health care plan reduced rates.

Im so scared to change my medication again after what happened last time, I have no leave left at work and feel a bit between a rock and a hard place.

[beingbyrne]

Oh Nervous Girl….I really feel for you ( big hugs) I know what it feels like to experiment with medications, it is a horrible roller coaster, I've been on that road myself. I couldn't cope during that time, but eventually we found the right combination of antidepressant and antipsychotic (I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say that,I might get edited for this) medication for me, which made a world of difference to the quality of my life. I can't blame you for being scared about trying new ones, but just hang on and keep talking to us. The more information we have about your circumstance the better chance we have to come with something to help you. And the mean time I am here for you and support you as much as I can.

Remember, there is always a better day waiting for you, and looking forward to hearing more from you.

Take care gorgeous girl

[Nervous_Girl]

Thank you for your support beingbyrne,

I am currently going through a stressful time which wouldnt be helping my anxiety at the moment. In October last year I separated from my husband of 12 years and am now living alone for the first time in my life. Of course with that comes all the running around of property settlement, I dont have children so at least i dont have that worry as well.

i have managed to get through most of it with what i would consider minimal anxiety but just lately i have found the levels increasing again. I dont really want to increase my meds if its all circumstantial i suppose.

I have only 1 friend that I trust with everything and I have my mother, I dont socialise with anyone else but I do go to work and have work colleagues. My hardest times are when i am at home alone because I find it so hard to pick up the phone and call someone, even my friend or my mother. I have a lovely man who keeps me company over the internet every night and knows my situation, but when hes not available I am left with myself and whatever worries decide they want to pop into my head which is usually work or money. Then i just spend the night crying to myself because the worries are so intense.

I have social issues as well as GAD. Its all so tiring and lonely 😞

[anxiousnewbeginnings_]

HI there Nervous Girl

I just felt a need to tell you that you are not alone. I have the exact same concern, i've had anxiety for 5 years but only been diagnosed for one year (because I was stubborn, and knew I would probably be diagnosed so never felt the need to go.. so silly!). I wonder all the time about whether my worries are legit worries or whether they are my anxious thoughts! Unfortunately medications can only help to a certain extent. I would suggest doing some research and seeing if you can get some help from another psychologist or counsellor.. I realise money is a giant issue. Maybe when youre having a really rough time, you could call lifeline, etc?

I really do not have a solution however, as I am still trying to figure out for myself! But *hugs* none the less. I hope you find some peace from these worries.

[Quivz]

hi there, really sorry to hear what you're going through. I don't know if i get anxious about my anxiety, but i get anxious about getting help. I've backed out of appointments, because i just couldn't face them and the longer i leave it without contacting to get another appointment the worse i feel until i simply cant face that psychiatrist anymore and i have to start the whole thing again and look for a new one. not exactly what you're going through, but a pretty vicious circle too.

[Man_nipple]

It's completely normal, I am terrified of my anxiety at the worst of times , I think about how far it will go and will it ever stop? It makes me feel better to read of people's success stories and see all the people who have managed to overcome and even harness the energy of our anxiety (sometimes my anxiety actually helps me out). It's a nasty thing though to be anxious about being anxious