Bellanana,
Thank you so much for reaching out to us, I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this.
Unfortunately, things like anxiety can be learned or inherited from our parents, so I can see how watching your mum struggle with anxiety can trigger you to react similarly. The good thing to know is that it is possible to get to know what may trigger our anxious responses and what can re-centre or ground us.
I'd also like to note that it's great that you're acknowledging your anxiety and that you want to change, perhaps in part due to watching how much your mum has suffered as a result. This mindset is good to have when seeking help.
Do you have anything specifically that triggers your anxiety, other than the situations that you have mentioned from when you were younger? What kind of thoughts or physical symptoms do you get?
It may help to document these kinds of experiences in a journal, as it's easier to pick up on any patterns with symptoms or triggers. This can be an important first step in recognising what we can do to alleviate these symptoms.
I'm sorry to hear about your experiences of abuse with your parents. Do you see a regular GP at all? Would you feel comfortable opening up to them about your experiences, perhaps also about your anxiety? Sometimes professional advice can also be a good way to gather coping strategies and tips that you can use in your everyday life to feel better.
I hope this helps and can offer you a bit of comfort, we're always here to support you if you still need to chat some more. I'd love to hear what you're thinking after posting here, too. Sometimes even writing out how we're feeling can be therapeutic as well.
All the best, SB
