Anxiety to depression to normal - The cycle?

[Gleaston]

Hi,

First time on the forum and looking for other peoples experience.

I've had a good 12months and thought that my medication  had hit the nail on the head, but last night had a big (not the biggest) anxiety attach.

I was asleep and rolled over to change position. In that moment of being semi awake I saw some shapes on the wall that looked like a person. I ignored the thought, but instantly had another that I was losing control. This went into a kind of feedback loop of 'My mind is unravelling and I'm losing control. If I lose control my mind will unravel'. Not the best description.

I managed to focus on something else (My feet moving in the sheets) and go back to sleep. When I woke up the depression was waiting for me. It's bad at first (Thought of the day was 'Will I make it to my daughters birthday', but eases off as the day progresses (general apathy).

I've never really spoken to anyone else with Anxiety/Depression, and am sure I must be lucky if I can go 12 months since my last episode, but I'm curious if this 'cycle' is common for other people?

[white knight]

Hi Gleaston, welcome

I cant say I have had what you describe. However the mind is an odd thing. About 30 years ago I was in a relaxation class whereby you tense up all of your muscles one at a time. The procedure was so effective and I was so relaxed that I had an out of body type experience. wow.

Since then every night as part of my relaxation routine I do the muscle tensioning exercises fully to the letter....but I've never had a repeat of that day.

The other thing is cycles. I'm used to mine now but they are still random. When I am in a happy energetic cycle I tend to do my chores, gardening etc, when down I do much less and wait until the good cycle comes.

Google

topic: depression and the timing of motivations- beyondblue

Of course don't forget your regular check ups. Sometimes medication can fool with us a bit but the overall effect can be a positive one once we have a good one for us.

Cheers, hope to hear from others.

TonyWK

[Mel...]

Hi Gleaston,

That awful state of being half asleep and half awake I know too well. It is when most of darkest thoughts occur. I also thought I had found the medication of my dreams but the last few days have started to prove other wise. I am sorry to hear you are going through the same thing. I have just had 3 years of little-to-no anxiety, seemed too good to be true! I spent today making doctors/psychiatrist/psychologist appointments so I can sort out whats going on. It might be worth you doing something similar?

Mel.