Dear Pallavi~
Anxiety is a horrible illness to try to deal with, it colors all one's thinking and can even make decision making over hasty and based upon worst-case scenarios.
Having that illness, then after trying to be realistic about its re-occurrence only to be taken ill again will have left a big mark on your thinking. As someone who sounds as if they have had ongoing anxious thoughts before this will have hit pretty hard.
Going to your doctor and hopefully seeing a medical professional is something that very much helped me. Not instant, but it became the start of my improvement. Therapy, plus medication helped. Incidentally that does not just mean one particular family of meds as you mentioned. I had to try a fair number to get something that suited. It took a degree of determination as hangovers are not pleasant at times but was worth it.
I also had to modify my lifestyle, exercise, nutrition, trying for restful sleep, and avoiding as many things that put pressure on me as possible (it's not possible to remove them all of course, they are a part of life).
Doing something very day to take your mind of all the hassles is important. Something in your routine to look forward to. I use reading, movies, podcasts, exercise with my partner and pets and other things . What sort of things might you have?
You might like to have a look at this thread -it is long but I've found it great:
Forums / Anxiety / SELF HELP TIPS FOR MANAGING ANXIETY
Dealing wiht anxiety by oneself is extra hard. Do you have anyone in your life to care and support you? My partner helps me to get perspective and see things more realistically, it really makes a difference.
Going to you GP is an excellent idea. If you think you might not be able to explain properly, even in a long appointment, consider doing what I have done and writing everything down well in advance and then sharing the paper. It makes things a lot easier.
Please let us know how you go
Croix
