Hi Damsel, welcome
Worry is only going to make your condition worse. In fact professionals like teachers look for worry in student to detect the possibility of anxiety. Fidgeting, frowning etc are signs.
It's good that you have sought help already whereas often on this forum we hear from others and we aren't even at the start of them getting help. Pat on the back there.
What I think is important for you to know- that most humans go through their lives managing their injuries/illnesses. How effective they manage them results in their general happiness. Admittedly I felt the same as you at around 27yo when I first had a back injury. Back injuries can be so painful and debilitating. I learned to manage it, change my hard physical job for a desk job and it slowly healed. However since then I've got a long list of things that have gone wrong with me physically and mentally. After a while you accept that this is the life I have and I'll deal with it. Some days we get down about it and other days we don't notice they are there. Life isn't full of happiness every day.
I have the ideal youtube video for you. Google "youtube prem rawat maharaji the perfect instrument". This incredible tutor puts things into perspective. To appreciate what you have not what you don't have is his secret. I've been listening to this man for 28 years now. Another of my favourites is "sunset". Look for it on youtube also.
There is a saying "I felt sorry for myself as I had no shoes....until I saw a man with no feet".
You have two challenges Damsel.
1/ To change the way you think from a half empty person to half full. To do this attend motivation lectures, read motivational books etc. I went to one in 1983, it lasted 30 minutes and it changes my life forever. From that day on I had a never give up attitude.
2/ To continue treatment for your anxiety and in terms of your depression prevention is far better than cure. Accept that managing your illness is the way it will be until you, hopefully, can overcome it. I did, it took me many years. It was overcome by a combination of medication, relaxation techniques (yes they do work), avoiding things and people in your life that don't help your condition and seeking lifestyles changes/career paths that are wise considering your issues.
At your age challenges seem tougher than they actually are. Like driving a car or riding a pushbike. Once you've learned it, you adjust as part of your life. Take care.
Tony WK
