Wearing a mask

[hann1805]

I've been on my AD's for about a week now, but I can't seem to shake this feeling. I'm constantly feeling depressed. I have all the support in the world but still feel like if I show my real feelings, my loved ones will get mad at me. My best friend already told me to "suck it up and take the compliment" when she was complimenting on a piece of artwork I did that I thought was really bad.

I just feel like I'm constantly pretending around everyone. Faking smiles, faking happiness. My motivation to continue studying has dropped, I study online so its always been hard to keep concentration. But recently its been really hard.

Yes I am improving a little, I'm more alert during the day so I'm able to work properly but I keep sleeping for 14 hours on my days off, which isn't healthy.

[Neil_1]

Dear Hann

Hey, I'm sorry that this is the first response that you've received, as your post has been on-line now for a while.

Thank you for providing your post - and for giving out some things about how you're going.

Firstly, with regard to medications, they usually take between 4-6 weeks before they begin to produce what they need to produce for you - ie:  they begin to start working.  They just need to get 'established' in you - so hang in there with regard to those and keep taking them as prescribed.

Yes, friends will say that - family members will say that as well - people who have no idea about mental health issues, simply say, suck it up sister (brother) and get on with life.  Or the other stupid one, pour some concrete into your coffee and harden the eff up.  All great things to be said.   NOT.  People who have no idea about depression just cannot understand it.

With regard to your study on-line - if you say that during the day things can be ok;  try to set up a routine and perhaps if the concentration is wavering - then try to reduce the amount of time that you study for.  Break it up into smaller chunks.

Sleeping 14 hours a day is perhaps a wee bit too much I'd imagine.  That might be something to discuss with your GP on your next visit?

Kind regards

Neil