I'm worried that I'm doing the wrong thing entirely

[Liam007]

For the last week I've been having negative emotions and having worries, and in the last week I feel like I've gone overboard in expressing it. So far I have:

• Used the Beyondblue chat at least four times
• Created 5 threads on the forum, including this one
• Booked an appointment to see a youth counselor.
• Seen my school counselor 3 times
• Signed up for a another forum and used the online chat service there

I feel like I'm going overboard in trying to deal with the whole thing. I'm anxious, feeling like I'm handling the whole situation wrong, like I'm doing to much, but I find I do it because I need to keep myself calm and relaxed as I'm on a long waiting list to see a youth counselor. I also think I use this forum a little too much, I check it more than I check my FaceBook now. Am I going overboard with trying to get to the bottom of this? Is there anything I should do to ease up? Is it okay if I use the online chat when I feel more sad, lonely and anxious than usual? Anything I should tell myself to control this? This has been going on for a while I feel slightly nervous even writing this post.

I just want to state that I'm NOT consideringself harm or anything like that.Thanks,Liam

[Liam007]

Sorry, there was numerous spelling errors in that post. I'll ask it to be taken down this is the real post

Yes I'm studying Drama, but I find that I'm not enjoying it at the moment, that's where my feelings of inadequacy and worthlessness are the worst. There are certain group of kids who get on really well with our teacher, often helping him out with several of class Drama activities such as our school production, I desperately tried express my desire to help them out, but was turned down repeatedly. Even though he wrote that I was "an enthusiastic student" I feel like I've barely shown what I'm willing to do.I'm NOT asking to be a teachers pet or be the number 1 student, I just want to feel like a team player, but I don't feel like that at all.I Feel invisible

My Visual Arts teacher seems to have some form of faith in me, said he was willing to be my mentor for next year, so that's something. I will let you know how the doctor goes. Liam

[geoff]

dear Liam, believe or not this is a very interesting post, because it resembles how a great number of people actually feel, or have been through themselves or know someone who is or has.When we are clasping at straws trying to find a solution on how to find a solution that will solve our depression, we never know what direction to take, so all we can do is try each and everyone, some ways are more difficult than others, so what do we do, take the easy way first or what we have been advised or suggested to us, well this will depend on the person.By posting your comments is because you're only thinking aloud, because there's so much going through your mind and here is one place where you can do this, it's actually very good for you to verbalise your thoughts, otherwise you won't find an answer, sure a counsellor, doctor, family friends or psych all have different ideas, as do we, so you assess them all, some you can understand while other suggestions you can't, it's too complicated, but over time they may fall into place.Depression is a long awful illness and it needs so much help either from the professionals or those that have experienced it themselves, and on this site there are so many of us who have travelled all the hard yards, so please post as often as you wish, because remember you are only thinking aloud. Geoff.