I had a very good concentration at doing just one thing e.g.
Math. I would ‘wake up’ from my thinking to find the rest of the class had gone
to do something else.
I would look up gore on the internet.
10: Counting habits including: (power lines, cars, footsteps,
chewing, cracks). I built a weird scoring system around this that I couldn't be
kept track of as things were scored far too often. I had intense frustration
and feeling of wasted time from this. I got over it before high school, but I
still have counting habits, they just don’t consequently cause such stress as
they did in primary school).
13: Placement of possessions in my room with symmetrical manner.
Weekly cleaning of room, (dusting, window cleaning, de-cluttering)
17-18: Necessity of having my own desk at school. My friend
took my spot once and I couldn't learn properly at all. Before class starts I take
my pencil case from my bag and arrange it accordingly. I then open to the current page in my 4 ring partitioned binder, and get out the appropriate pen and calculator
and ruler for the lesson.
There are plenty of more things I could list, but I think I've addressed the main concerns along the timeline.
When things are going well for me, I am really quite happy
and relaxed and I feel good about life. But when things are out of order, I get
quite stressed and edgy. I have always considered that I might have OCD, but
then dismissed it because I don’t seem to build up as much stress as extreme
cases I have seen on TV. But just recently I have considered that it might
actually have it. I have never really
spoken to anyone about this, especially the violent thoughts as a 6 year old, I
still have those intense motives of rage that randomly spark, usually when I’m
by myself and I think of someone annoying me, or an unorganized inanimate object annoys me, or having following an argument with family members.
Do I have OCD?
What do I do next?
