Boyfriend is going through a Episode/breakdown & pushing me away

[emily2]

My boyfriend and i have been together for nearly 4 years but were best-friends for a long time before our relationship to. we are both 19. My boyfriend is as i said my best-friend and pretty much my only friend. We spend every weekend together since we both work during the week and he works an hour away so he stays with his aunt and uncle. Now just recently this week he started acting strange saying he feels unwell and he came home from work on a tuesday to take the week off to relax. he started finding it really hard to relax and was not thinking right acting confused over the next couple of days it got worse he got more confused his heart was racing he started hearing voices he says and it just got worse from there, i told his family they came and got him and are monitoring him at home apparently he even got aggresive and punched the wall and the police were called. anyways i am suffering with major anxiety depression at the moment about being seperated from him and not being able to talk to him normally, some days he will seem fine and tell me he loves me then the next day he acts cold and seems like hes pushing me away. i feel selfish thinking about myself when its obvious he cant even look after himself at the moment but i am just beside myself with anxious thoughts like him leaving me or this episode or whatever it is, is going to ruin my relationship. i love my boyfriend so much and at the moment i feel so severely depressed and anxious i cant even eat. its so hard to see the person you know and love change like that. i just want everything to be back to normal, i admit i do feel suicidal because without him i feel nothing i feel like i am nothing i cant get myself to do my everyday activities because i cant stop thinking about him he is everything to me. i think i just really need some re assurance from him or his family but im just not getting anywhere. please help me i am beside myself at the moment with worry.

[blondguy]

Hello Emily2

Im sorry for the delay in receiving a reply...we are usually pretty quick in responding

To have your boyfriend go through this would be heart wrenching Emily especially with the love you have for him too

You are not selfish for thinking about yourself at all. You are only being proactive with your own health which is crucial. Your quality of health is important not only for yourself but when your boyfriend needs you

May I ask you if your boyfriend has been diagnosed with any health issues yet?

You are amazing to have reached out to us and be a part of the forum family Emily

Reassurance is important for you at the moment as you mentioned. Have you had any feedback from your boyfriends family at all?

You are not alone at all

Please let us know how you are

My Kind thoughts for you in this difficult period

Paul