Seeing boyfriend for a few months long distance. Went on holidays and met up with him in France, we had a beautiful time and then his mother unexpectedly died. I supported him but had to leave him. When I got home he met me within two hours of being in the country. He told me everything would be alright as he had me.
I saw him again and when I was to visit him again. A few days before, he sent me an email telling me he couldn’t be in a relationship right now and wasn’t coping with grief and depression. That he couldn’t consider someone normal like me loving him. That he needed to love himself first, clear his mind before going forward and having a normal relationship. I said I accepted and respected what he said and set him free. He then sent me a few messages which I responded to politely.
After silence for 2 weeks, I touched base. He responded saying my email made him smile. A couple of days later he contacted me telling me he hadn’t left the house for nearly a month and that for the past two weeks not one person contacted him and that wasn’t a great when having depression. He told me he was going to France see family as he needed help. He told me he wanted to call me the next day but then he was too busy with friends getting wasted it wasn’t a good time to call. I sent a message, I understood and that all that mattered to me was he was going home to his family. In transit he sent email thanking me for my love. 2 weeks On I touched base. he responded saying he was unable to respond to any emails since he left Australia. Then he received mine with no questions or judgment. Since being home I was all around him. He told me he wished he had met me years ago before he had demons. That he shouldn’t have let me into his life and didn’t expect to get attached. He wrote reality: delete my number, forget me, the better it will be for me. That he spent the evening eating my favourite food, thinking of me all night and to keep that as our last happy memories together. I tried calling, no answer. I sent him an email saying that I was very worried he wanted to disappear. I said I would go quite for a bit but I would not forget him and that I loved him very much. i am extremely worried and am considering going to see him. I feel I have respected him wanting space but he is getting worse. I could wait until he returns to Australia but I’m unsure when that is. I’m afraid he is alone, that France would fix him.
i don’t know what to do.......
