Young people

Looking for someone to talk to - a teen or in their 20s

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Hi, I'm Tayla and I'm 20. I'm just looking for someone to chat with who's in their teens or 20s, as the post suggests. It's really hard for me because there's nowhere or any way for me to meet people where I live close to my age. I'd love if someone ... View more

Hi, I'm Tayla and I'm 20. I'm just looking for someone to chat with who's in their teens or 20s, as the post suggests. It's really hard for me because there's nowhere or any way for me to meet people where I live close to my age. I'd love if someone could reply just for someone to talk with and hopefully become Forum Friends somehow, if anyone is interested. Thanks, Tayla.

I might be trans

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I don't really know for certain but I think I might be. Like, I've never liked hanging out with girls and stuff but I'm really worried because what if I only think I feel this way because several of my friends are trans. How do I actually know for ce... View more

I don't really know for certain but I think I might be. Like, I've never liked hanging out with girls and stuff but I'm really worried because what if I only think I feel this way because several of my friends are trans. How do I actually know for certain? Additionally, I was talking to my mum about how I want a penis (because I know that much) and she's like "ARE YOU SAYING YOURE TRANS" "Cause I don't think you're trans" Even though she supports all my trans friends. How would I know for certain? I don't want to move forward then move backwards I feel like I'd get too much shit for that.

Do I have an undiagnosed mental issue or am I just suffering from a classic case of childhood trauma?

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So, my brother and I were on a drive one day and I was telling him about how my mother thought I might have inherited her OCD. This was suspected when I was telling her about my young childhood and how I had habits of crying when paint was chipped, o... View more

So, my brother and I were on a drive one day and I was telling him about how my mother thought I might have inherited her OCD. This was suspected when I was telling her about my young childhood and how I had habits of crying when paint was chipped, organising things, destroying my art if it didn't suit me, disliking certain patterns, constantly rubbing out and re-doing writing and spending hours making my hair slicker etc. I have grown out of most of these but my mother still suspects it. After telling my brother this he said it didn't sound like OCD at all and more like autism. Deep down I doubt that I would, considering the people I know who have autism, have told me the kinds of things they deal with and how they differ from my own difficulties. I began to overthink this for a few weeks and wondered if there was something else going on in my brain when I related it to more of the things I have trouble with. So I asked my boyfriend who knows me the best and he seemed to think I struggle with emotional neglect from my childhood and issues I faced at a young age. CONTEXT: Growing up I had one parent who worked full time and the other slept all day leaving my care up to my siblings. Both my parents had a really hard upbringing in turn making them a little bit emotionally lacking towards their kids. My siblings got that as well as being brought up in a strict religion that I only experience to the age of 5. My siblings (as teens at the time) were going through incredibly rough times too and didn't know how to treat me and did questionable things they thought would help. In turn, I didn't get any emotional support and security growing up from my family. And from then to now many dramas have transpired in our lives and in my personal life that have contributed to who I am now. Last year I worked through depression and severe anxiety n my own and made it out with some scars and my life. I have become so much happier since then after meeting truly good people and becoming closer to family. However, I have become someone who is stuck in their head a lot and I constantly overthink and dig myself into holes and it controls my every move. I can't live in the moment and I feel like I don't know myself. It's like I act differently for every person. I have the worst self image and I often wonder whether my behaviour is normal + OCD or completely normal or maybe there is something else? Anyone have any advice for me? Hope this makes sense, what a big paragraph lmao

Leaving high school

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Hi, So last year I finished year 12 and I was fairly happy to be leaving high school as I did not have that much of a positive experience in terms of some of the people I hung out with, but as of recently I have started to miss my school life. I am n... View more

Hi, So last year I finished year 12 and I was fairly happy to be leaving high school as I did not have that much of a positive experience in terms of some of the people I hung out with, but as of recently I have started to miss my school life. I am not sure it this is just the anxiousness of starting university as I am feeling really down about it and somethings feel near crying. Sorry if this doesn't make too much of sense and seems like word blunder, but I don't know I am scared to go out in the 'real world' due to people around me saying how stressful it is and how their school life seemed so much better than this. Again sorry if this doesn't make any sense.

Leaving My Former Homophobic Religion and Re-analysing Their Scriptures

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Hi everyone! Today I want to discuss the internalised homophobia that I have, likely because of my religious upbringing in a faith called Falun Gong (FLG for short). Before we get started, please notify me if you are a former follower of FLG, or if y... View more

Hi everyone! Today I want to discuss the internalised homophobia that I have, likely because of my religious upbringing in a faith called Falun Gong (FLG for short). Before we get started, please notify me if you are a former follower of FLG, or if you are familiar with or heard of it. Basically, FLG teaches that when you perform good deeds, you gain white matter called ''virtue'' in your body; and when you perform bad deeds, you gain black matter called ''karma''. ''Karma'' is gained when you hurt others, which gives them ''virtue'' and transfers their ''karma'' to you. Both as far as I recall act in another parallel dimension, since they believe that other you's connected to you in this universe manifest in other dimensions. They also assert that being gay, not just having gay relations, create ''karma'', since they believe that even your thoughts can create ''karma''. Needless to say that this concept does still cause me to fret out quite a bit, especially since I don't immediately remember enough of the whole FLG theology to be able to logically ascertain how it all works. In addition, the founder of FLG also asserts that if he wasn't preaching his faith, that the ''gods'' first target for elimination would be LGBT people in a 1998 lecture he gave in Switzerland. Given the fact that most people associate deities with benevolence and justice, and that my religious upbringing, as is with most, codifies this association, it is still hard for me to see the injustice and tyranny belying this claim. What isn't helpful is the copious usage of loaded language and thought-terminating cliches throughout the founder's texts, which serve to control and shut down my reasoning and critical thinking abilities. This isn't helped by the fact that such beliefs return whenever I'm in my ''normal state'', where my sleep cycle is in accordance with the day/night cycle, where I can properly pass bowel movements, where I feel like I want to pursue my passions and ambitions etc... I honestly hope that you guys can help me out of this mess. Tips on combating internalised homophobia would be helpful (though I'm straight). If you people are curious about the lecutre, you can Google 'Falun Dafa lecture Switzerland 1998'

Mudcakes’s personal thread. (My story)

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I have chosen this sub forum as my personal thread. If I need support on a very specific issue I’ll refer to the other sub forums. (from my intro post) I’m a 16 year old female and live with a single Mum. I love writing and reading. I write for film ... View more

I have chosen this sub forum as my personal thread. If I need support on a very specific issue I’ll refer to the other sub forums. (from my intro post) I’m a 16 year old female and live with a single Mum. I love writing and reading. I write for film and television (scripts etc) using final draft software. I just finished a pilot spec! I have major social anxiety and have NVLD which I’m going to assume none of you know of. I struggle with social cues. Time management. Hand eye coordination. Self care. Spacial awareness and have depression. I’ve experienced DV. I start year 11 soon. I recently figured out I’m bisexual and only my mum, a close friend and a few fellow lgbt friends of mine know. I have a almost ten year old dog and live in a box in a suburb my Mum and I hate. We moved here from the country and didn't see the place in person. My dog injured herself very badly and had surgery due to the unit being tiny and she runs around a lot excited. I have been having friendship problems, just a toxic horrible ex friend of mine blindsiding my best friend etc and will post that another time or maybe just in the friendship sub forum. That’s stressing me out as I have been badly bullied many times in the past and a few years ago it got really bad that I did heavening Therapy and was so distressed re living it. I just don’t want to be isolated again and alone at school. I’ve been feeling down and depressed. Anxious and tired. Plus even more stressful things re my father with police things etc needing to be done. I’m sorry if I have mistaken the rules again with the personal thread thing, I can easily get confused. Mudcakes

Joining the Army with a History of Depression

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Hi all, this is my first time on BeyondBlue - would appreciate if anyone could try and give me a hand. I've had a history of depression, anxiety, and a few other more nuanced disorders. They have lasted for almost two years, I am medicated and I was ... View more

Hi all, this is my first time on BeyondBlue - would appreciate if anyone could try and give me a hand. I've had a history of depression, anxiety, and a few other more nuanced disorders. They have lasted for almost two years, I am medicated and I was hospitalised a few times with several severe situations now behind me. I'm now almost clear and would like to join the army in a year or so. The ADF is surprisingly quite ambiguous about careers there with allowance of depressive history. This is all they have to say - "https://www.defencejobs.gov.au/help-centre/faqs?faqCategory=b80b22f6-ab13-4c33-b366-06b660b267b4&faqTag=eligibility&faqQuestion=2e2326f8-1dd9-49c8-9d39-ce5f5785d431". It would be an absolute dream to join and unfortunately, the helpline for the ADF seems to not be allowed to answer me on the issue, possibly on a professional basis. This makes it very tricky - do I go down all the steps of applying for a YOU session and the rest, or should I just chuck it all aside. I have worked really hard to get myself back on track with my diet, education, exercise, rigour, etc., to account for my difficult history which might otherwise reflect badly on my applicability. I appreciate that it is probably hard for anyone in my shoes to be accepted, but my main questions are; 1. Should I bother applying? 2. Has anyone got in like me before? 3. Is there any nuance to my application that increases my chances? Thanks for your time. Alex

all of my efforts are in vain

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title sums things up, i'd say. just seems like nothing i do matters in the slightest. every step i take in life is overlooked and ignored for one reason or another. academically, socially, et cetera. i don't make an impact on anything and i'm not sur... View more

title sums things up, i'd say. just seems like nothing i do matters in the slightest. every step i take in life is overlooked and ignored for one reason or another. academically, socially, et cetera. i don't make an impact on anything and i'm not sure why i even bother with trying. i try studying more than i've ever done for a big test coming up. end up getting a C- anyway. i give a compliment to someone, trying to be nice. they stare at me like i'm a freak and walk away. i try helping around the house in any way i can. get called lazy anyway. i genuinely see no reason why i shouldn't just isolate myself completely because it's obvious i'm not making any sort of impact on the people i meet in any way. i'd even go so far as to say i wouldn't be missed if i wound up dead tomorrow. that's how worthless i feel. i like to think i'm doing my best, but clearly i'm not because then i'd be able to turn some heads with my actions. instead i get brushed over and walked past like a background object. like i always do. TL;DR - feeling worthless because nothing i do has an effect in any way.

I promise, things get better :)

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Hello all, It has been four years since I have posted on this website, first when I was 14 and I am now almost 19. I struggled a lot with depression and anxiety and having low self worth. Back when I was younger I honestly thought that I would feel t... View more

Hello all, It has been four years since I have posted on this website, first when I was 14 and I am now almost 19. I struggled a lot with depression and anxiety and having low self worth. Back when I was younger I honestly thought that I would feel terrible forever, I didn't see any way out of the feelings I felt. I was morbidly obese, had very few friends, had no luck in love and always felt like the outcast in most settings. Now that I am back here after four years I'm proud to say that I genuinely value and love life. I saw a psychologist for 3 years, and as daunting as it was when I first started I cannot express how valuable that was. Personally it took me a few psychologists until I found the one that I clicked with, but when I did and I started to work through my mental health issues it made all the difference. I still suffer from my mental health issues but now I have the tools I need to deal with my emotions and it feels great to be in control. I have also since lost 37 kilograms in the four years and have a genuine passion for achieving the best version of myself I possibly can. I always thought I would be alone forever, but now I am in a serious relationship of almost 2 years. To any young people that feel as though life sucks and things won't get better, please know that if you take the right steps your life can and will become something that is genuinely worth living and embracing. Im not sure if it is possible but if anyone, and I mean anyone needs someone to talk to, I am always open to hear you out. Stay strong, you are loved. Jack

I have OCD and depression and my family dont care/understand.

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Im 19 years old and from the age of 13 ive had severe depression, anxiety. This was because of the things I've gone through since a small child, specifically, having an abusive and manipulative father who still on occasion will harass and scare us. I... View more

Im 19 years old and from the age of 13 ive had severe depression, anxiety. This was because of the things I've gone through since a small child, specifically, having an abusive and manipulative father who still on occasion will harass and scare us. I've been dealing with these things for most of my life, alone with the help of my religion, with no help or understanding from any of my family (my non immediate family are not in australia) and recently i found I have OCD, more specifically I wash my hands compulsively, and cannot sleep till my bed and body is clean, if i touch something by accident, i need to wash it again, and if i dont or cant i will freak out, pace back and forth and breathe heavy. I realize this is something i need to work on, but I am a student and cannot afford therapy so I'm trying to deal with it myself. However my family (mother and sister) make it so much worse. We share a small house, and because of how small it is everyone can hear everything and if one light is one everyone knows. Ontop of this the bathroom is right next to my mother's room. We have daily fights about this, and they will talk badly behind my back and my sister will insult, roll her eyes and bump into me "accidently" after a night of me handwashing. I've tried to explain to them i cant help it and I don't mean to keep them awake but i literally cannot help. But they just tell me im selfish and incosiderate and i should just "stop". Its gotten to the point where when I AM washing my hands and trying to focus on not going on and on, the level of anxiety in me makes me feel as if I cant breathe and I often cry and tell myself I want to die. My family also dont respect when I ask them not to touch things or put things on my bed, they just roll their eyes, ignore me, tell me it isnt a big deal or more specifically my mom will say its too bad its her house. Apart from this, ive spent my whole life copping it left and right from my family. On one side my father abused and manipulated me, and treated me like I was the stupid child with issues ( he said this to my mother on multiple occasions when i was as young as 9) on the other side I have a mother continuously telling me what im doing wrong and how im like this and that. And then my sister who's just overall horrible towards me. Im at a loss at what to do and my mental state is extremely bad right now.

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Looking for someone to talk to - a teen or in their 20s

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I might be trans

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Do I have an undiagnosed mental issue or am I just suffering from a classic case of childhood trauma?

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Leaving high school

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Leaving My Former Homophobic Religion and Re-analysing Their Scriptures

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Mudcakes’s personal thread. (My story)

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Joining the Army with a History of Depression

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all of my efforts are in vain

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I promise, things get better :)

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I have OCD and depression and my family dont care/understand.

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New to this Forum? Please read this first!

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Looking for someone to talk to - a teen or in their 20s

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I might be trans

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Do I have an undiagnosed mental issue or am I just suffering from a classic case of childhood trauma?

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Leaving high school

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Leaving My Former Homophobic Religion and Re-analysing Their Scriptures

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Mudcakes’s personal thread. (My story)

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Joining the Army with a History of Depression

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all of my efforts are in vain

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I promise, things get better :)

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I have OCD and depression and my family dont care/understand.

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