Hi there Guys and Girls, I have my own worries too, I worry about not being able to find Mangable Suitable Jobs and than eventually find a Long Term Manageable Meaningful Career. I worry that I won't have the ability to come off my Anti Psychotic Medications, I worry I will never find a Girlfriend or a Dream Wife who meets my needs, I'm 24 turning 25 Years Old this Month with No Women History, I feel I may never have Friends, And besides my concerns with Job's or Career Survival, I worry I may not adapt or have the Responsibility to get up Early as I'm not a Morning Person, I'm a Night Owl. I worry I will never have the Life Skills, to keep my Head above Water, To Pay my Bills, to lead and live my life without my Parents. I feel my Future Is over because very shortly I will be told If my future Driver's Licence or Learners Permit will be restricted or If I will be Un eligible to Drive a Vehicle anymore. You see I have been Miss Diagnosed with a Severe Mental Illness, and for the past 4 Years, I never had a suitable Car, Or people to drive with. I Just look at my life and think to myself, If I never was fortunate to have the DSP I wouldn't be able to afford to save for a Car or pay for Driving Lessons, and now I have a Occupational Therapist who may throw away all my efforts and all the Money I've spent learning to Drive out the window. I never had a Father Figure Just a Narcissist Un Involved Financial Provider. I don't have all the Life Skills to Survive, How to find Accommodation, What Jobs I want, How to handle Poverty, and that's not worth the Fight because theirs no Future with that, not In the Modern World, I feel dead already, because I have No Weekly Activity and Routine, I'm told by everyone your lucky to have Any Job, Everything Is tough, Take Anything, and that most people don't have lasting long term security, I hear about and Read Online that so many have their own Battles and Problems, That prospect comforts me but makes me see the World as a "Circus of Suffering". I'm Just I have my Mum and my Brother and that's all, And No one will ever replace my Mum. I feel like I don't even care If I live or don't. I feel consumed by the Future.
