Well thanks for receiving me and my whinge. I did feel a bit better just knowing it was out there without even seeing the reply, but it was especially nice hearing back from someone.
Honestly going out doesn't always make me feel good. Sometimes it does, and sometimes all I have is the knowledge of the accomplishment that I did it anyway. But it usually DOES me good, even if it doesn't feel good. Espcially dancing. It helps me to go, knowing that even if all I do is get through it, at least I'm going to get some exercise.
I haven't been sleeping well which really didn't help at my dance lesson. I was a right old zombie by the end of it. But thankfully there was a friend there that knows me and some of my troubles (and whom has some troubles of their own and whom was also a bit out of it by the end) whom I could openly admit it to and we could whine and laugh it off together.
To answer your question, I've been trying to work on a few different styles of dancing but that particular lesson was partner dancing.
I'm taking a new medication tonight to help me sleep. New to me, not to the market. I think I remember reading something about how we're not supposed to name meds, so I won't. But I'm more than a little freaked out. I've had some rather hellish medication changes in the past... it shouldn't too be bad since I'm not changing as such, just adding this new one as a prn. But it's still a big deal. I think I'm most afraid of the vivid dreams that can be a side effect. I've been there and it can be out-of-this-world-cosmically distressing. But at this point I'm starting to walk around acting drunk for a few too many hours of the day in a row after a solid month or two of poor sleep and something's gotta give. Not to mention the stunted weightloss that can come from lack of quality sleep.
I'm also concerned about a physical abnormality which could make this medication problematic in the long term but I'll ask a GP about that when I get around to it. I had hoped to do so before taking my first dose but I just can't put off doing something about sleep any longer.
Not sure how soon it will change but I made my profile pic into a different Forrest tonight to reflect venturing into the unknown. I thought it might be fun and/or theraputic to sometimes change my pic to match my mood or circumstances. Still a Forrest, just in different modes or with different perspectives. To illustrate that I'm still me, just different sides of me.
