Saying hi to everyone

[Waterfalls]

Hi everyone, I've just joined this site... I've had depression since I was a child

To cut a long story short, the last 3 years depression and anxiety has dominated my life. Through that I've no friends left really that I feel that I can confide in for fear of losing more.

To add to that concern I lost my partner due to this also. The main trigger that unearthed the depression bigtime, where previously i was able to recover, was a total and uttet loss of passion and purpose. Not just workwise but pretty much everything. Loss of relationships have really compounded things for me, there is alot of shame there for allowing that to happen.

I've tried many forms of conventional treatment,and not so conventional. I've yet to find the key. I've been a hard nut to crack. Still fighting

Cheers

[blondguy]

Hello Waterfalls

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the courage to post too!

Having depression and anxiety is a tough combination to have for sure. My anxiety did eventually dissipate with weekly counseling and now have had depression since. I still see my GP every month for a 'tune up' if my brain decides to misbehave.

Im sorry to read about your partner not being with you anymore. That has had a huge effect in my life too and it hurts....a lot

Your passion and purpose is still there Waterfalls.....its been clouded over temporarily and will return to you

Venting can bring great relief where depression/anxiety are concerned. Do you have a good GP that you can lean on for a double appointment? There are many GP's that have a serious interest in helping us where depression is concerned.

You show great strength by reaching out on the forums. Great stuff Waterfalls 🙂

There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you that also suffer from similar feelings that you and I do. We look forward to hearing from you when/if you wish

You are not alone here in any way

my kind thoughts

Paul

[Waterfalls]

Hi Paul,

Thanks for the warm welcome...

I do have a GP but he is appalled at the psychiatric treatment I've had recently. I've had to come to accept that i have to 'shop around' whilst feeling ill to find another one.

I just feel at the end of the road but there is still something there keeping me here..

Name a form of conventional treatment - I've most probably been there done that.

Having issues with professional therapy is a topic i wanted to raise on its own, but I really dont want to risk others taking it as me bashing psychiatrists/putting people off from trying. So I'm glad this post is moderated.

There are good ones out there. I met one while hospitalised recently. Unfortunately she doesn't take anyone on outside of it. I've been unlucky.

I've always liked helping others. They say that you can't help others until you help yourself. In my case, i want to help others anyway as helping myself just isn't working!

W

[blondguy]

Hey W

Thanks heaps for posting back. Your presence here is gift to the many people that dont have the strength that you have by posting.

I am the same as you W, just trying to de- stigmatize mental illness. My brother had schizophrenia in the '80's and I have had chronic anxiety followed by depression since 1983 when I was in my 20's. Its a very rough road to travel on for sure.

I have also had experiences with some health professionals that have ended up with me feeling crap as well.

I support super regular counseling with anyone.....a mental health care worker (career focused psychiatric nurse) ....social workers have helped me too

Helping others takes a lot of courage too. There are many people in pain that could benefit from what you have been through.......if and when you wish to that is. I have had a recent dark period with my depression and am just doing what I can do get out of the quicksand

Your thoughts/opinions are welcome here Waterfalls. The forums are a judgemental free zone. No one will judge you here.

Being ill can effect our motivation to find a good GP/counselor that can let us vent.

Great to have you as part of the Beyond Blue forums though Waterfalls 🙂

My Best

Paul

[Waterfalls]

Thanks again Paul i really appreciate the effort made in replies here

I'm an eighties gen x child myself and remember the days when mobiles were bricks and shoulder pads were in fashion etc

indeed my motivation is pureeety non existent at the moment. While i wait for the next psyche i will spend my money on activities even if i dinner want to do any of it. It would otherwise be money wasted on someone who quite frankly is a waste of time for me. In fact using your resources to do stuff should have been the docs recommendation! Not just making another appointment with me for the sake of it.