Minimal Vs Extreme motivation???

[EITSIRHC]

Hi All,

First time here, Just wondering if anyone else has this problem, I'm doing my own head in 😞

I get most of my anxiety in the morning (Full of dread and worry when I wake up) and right before bed (as I have trouble sleeping the thought of going to bed makes me panic a bit)- I am finding my proactive thoughts and plans cant happen because I physically cant find the energy/motivation/focus to execute any of my plans.

I find I will have a positive mood and make plans big and small in my head to simply walk around the block, colour in, clean or anything proactive or that will lighten my mood or increase my health or add something happy and beautiful to my day.

BUT, I have all these excuses and feelings that make me not do the fun activity I planned on doing anything really will put me off my plans e.g too late in the day, rain/clouds, the house is messy, other things to do ect anything to get me out of my commitment to myself. Then I feel extreme guilt and feel like I let myself down because I want to be healthy and happy but its too hard ( I don't want to sound pathetic but I feel like its total self sabotage? why do I even get the feeling to do something nice and healthy if I know I'm not going to follow through?)

I don't even have to be in a bad mood to procrastinate or not follow through I just do anything to avoid doing what I planned and its frustrating me so much! Im in a bad self care cycle 😞

[quirkywords]

EITSIRHC

welcome to the forum.

I can relate to your problem.

For me I have motivation at night and energy and make plans for the day. By mrning I lack energy and find it hard to follow plans.

For me if I break the task down into small parts and maybe reward myself for each bit I do, sometimes help.

Sometimes, I say hate doing this, like tax, but I do one bit at a time acknowledging I am not all happy.

If things are important we just need to do it and ignore about feelings. if we are tired have a break.

Sometimes just telling yourself you know you want to avoid doing an activity but you will do it anyway .

It is not easy but sometimes you just have to ignore your feelings, which are made up of thoughts, and get on with things. Even if you do one activity and try.

quirky

[blondguy]

Hello EITSIRHC

Welcome to you and thankyou for posting with us.....and having the courage too!

I understand you when it comes to procrastination and not following through. Having this awful anxiety condition can leave us mentally exhausted and combined with a 'tired' brain its common to feel the way we do

Going to bed and feeling anxious about what type our sleep we will have is also very common....I had the same for a few years until I saw my GP and she helped me out big time....It took a while...and some counseling yet it was worth it as the severity of my anxiety reduced so much

Can I ask if you have a GP that you get along with?

I hope you can post back when its convenient for you. We dont have instant chat enabled yet we have many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you 🙂

My kind thoughts

Paul